It's sad to know that your loved ones didn't actually know the real truth about you..that's all cos they didn't even bother to take time to observe and understand what's came from your actions huh..It's so frustrating and it's feels like the pain is laughing on you..
A person doesn't need to speak a word if you really care about them..Look straight into her/his eyes and ask properly, you actually can find the answer for that..Really!! But somehow, you always have this kind of mindset that when it's-not-said-out loud, everything is fine! When the truth is, it's TOTALLY not alright..S/he doesn't need to explain everything what's happening in her or his life..Does s/he need to tell people over and over and over again everything what's happen? Aren't you given a brain to think? Stimulate that vital organ of yours lah people..That girl/guy doesn't need to put a sad face in front of you to let you know that s/he actually shrinking inside..nor does her or his happy face actually picture the real feeling inside that person heart!! The outer look always can FOOL people, well that's the truth! No one can deny it..
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Have you ever heard that a WORD can ENLIGHTEN people heart? Yet, as a matter of fact it actually also can KILL someone!!! You perfectly know that, didn't you?! But you prefer to ignore that..or rather you only spitting whatever in your mind without even considering the fact that you actually hurting them..Not physically, obviously..But hey, emotional breakdown is actually more SEVERE than that, if you wish to take a note on that!
I put this song Kelly Clarkson-Mr. Know It All cos it's perfect to those who claiming they know everything bout your life when the thing is..they actually know NOTHING about you.
As on Christmas day, we went to our family houses..Since we going to our cousin's wedding the next day, so there's no Christmas day at our place..
My cousins :)
My cousins, Amor actually can really TALK! already, but only a few words :p .. She can said bird, tingo, mama, ian (her ge ge name) CLEARLY!...But the rest is the words that only she understand it..But the way she talk everything is just like people can really understand her, but it's the opposite actually..Anywhere, she still soooooooo CUTE!
After went home, i was so exhausted and fallen slept..Actually my aunt asked me to take Amor with me and let her sleep too..I did brought her and we played with the cam for a while..Then said to her, let sleep..But apparently i were the one who fallen slept while she actually went out from my room and follow around my mami..no wonder lah she kept laughing and excited all the time, it's all because she didn't even plan to sleep but wait up for me to sleep first..what a tricky lil girl haha..
Amor and me :)
Then at night we wet to my aunt house..It's gonna be my other cousin's wedding (my mum side) too the next day, but since we going to the wedding of my cousin (dad side), so cannot make it to her wedding..then we plan to make compensation over it by coming the day before..At least we show up and came to congrat her..Though we felt sorry actually..But what to do right..Met with my aunt from Sandakan, my mami's 'twin'
My aunt and mami :)
Oh it's already pass 3..My sis and I exchange turn a while ago to babysit baby Kael since his parent go out..Luckily he's sleepy just now and now peacefully sleep there on the bed..makes it easier for me to finish this entry Lol (i actually start typing while he was on my lap and let him see all the Korean MV, with he actually murmuring along..so cute :)
Today c Kael wearing a PINK outfit! (well, nowadays every colour is for anyone) same as mine..So i took our pic together Lol (really, got nothing to do huh :p )
Isn't he amazing?!always know where the cam is!!
without my conduct
End of story. Again, today i wanna say thanks to the Lord for all the blessing and protection He given us :)
"Give me neither poverty nor riches-feed me with the food allotted to me."-Proverbs 30:8
You know, money alone is the most irresistible thing to human..But being over the top and bragging bout your wealth actually can attract all sort of uninvited thing close to you..So what if you live in the World's heaven?! Spending and wasting all the money like it's nothing.. When all the people around you actually the fake one..But if the riches spend their money for a good thing like for charity sake, then that's a noble act! (but to show it off on the paper or media which solely just for attention's sake, then that's fake~ FAKE!!!)
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However, being broke sure a nightmare too, for anyone..Well i can't deny it, money is still the most important as ever..Having financial crisis can actually lead to arguments (apparently this one also a factor on the marriage failure) or even worst to people who experienced it..
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That's why i prefer to live life in humble way yet still able to do anything that i love and interested with..Isn't Jesus also thought us to be humble in every way..It's all thought to us because He knows better than us..We might don't see it, but what's best for His children, He's the one who knows the best..
It's finally the real Christmas day!!..Therefore before i write any further (or retarding), i wanna wish every single Christian in the world to have a very BLESSED MERRY CHRISTMAS!
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Actually i don't get it why people like to wish it when there still got like a week to go..But it might because of the excitement they getting earlier than the date, who knows..OK i wanna say once again, yaep it's Christmas day..You sure can enjoy it WHOLEHEARTEDLY..After all it's a happy event to celebrate to begin with, but let's not be so ignorant by forgetting the other who DON'T have the chance to celebrate it even though they actually crave for it..Let's PRAY for the needy, the one who suffer and also away doing their jobs in order to let people enjoying themselves tonight..
Soldiers..if they take day-off, then who gonna protect your one peaceful and blissful Christmas day and country?!~so feel HONORED!
Nurses and doctors..well if someone pass out during the party, can you imagine if there's nobody to turn when the hospitals are all close?!~so be THANKFUL for their services! (my cousin having post called, so he cannot go home to celebrate Christmas, how sad :( )
Waiters and Waitresses..well u may be cannot bring your loved one having some amazing dinner for Christmas treat if the restaurants are all close right?! for them to serve you without being able to spend their own precious time with their loved one on Christmas day, be GRATEFUL! then.
Pilots and Stewards/esses..If they all go home for Christmas, can you imagine you stuck at the airport because there's no even one flight there to take your back to your hometown?! So be OBLIGED!
Also the other who i forgot to mention (go and try to put yourself on their shoes..what say you then?!)
All these people diligently doing their works in order to make your day and the following day keep functioning like usual..So, at least be considerate of what the other are doing..You may don't see it, but what they do, actually have great influences in our life..It just we are the one who don't wish to bother over that matter that we say have nothing to do with ourselves..Indeed, it's actually do!
It's not gonna rob your day by doing so..It's only gonna take like a few minutes on your prayer for them..Do not be too selfish, cos it'll somehow saddened Jesus over your ignorant attitude.
Remember this Word?
"As we have opportunity, let us do good to all."-Galatians 6:10
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during Christmas Eve. Wonderful work! May God bless them.
Just got home a while back from the church..Gotta tell ya, it's so crowded with people!!..Well, there's too many people until all the provided chairs weren't enough..The crowd had outnumbered the chairs quantities..Some even need to stand for the entire time during the mass..But the great thing is, even so they didn't had any chair to sit on, but they still stay to attend the mass (until it's OVER!) and to celebrate the day of Jesus Christ's born..Isn't that great..well i think so!
Luckily we managed to get chairs (which only few left that moment)..We sat at the right wings~OUTSIDE of course since there's no room to sit anymore inside..Plus, the area in front was already occupied with lotsa people..Trust me, there's no even space left..From what i heard, around 6 something, the church already crowded with people which explain people who arrived around 8 (although the mass start at 8.30) didn't get any chance to enter the church (unless to accept the bread) ..Luckily Mr Weather is so kind today..He already given Mr Cloudy and Mr Rain a day off so the mass went smoothly :) The choir did such amazing job too tonight..
Well, that's my boring talk about my experience tonight at the church..Anywhere gotta say, Merry Christmas and have a bless Christmas Eve night..Enjoy the Christmas day not solely for the celebration sake but for the Christ also :)
Here's the video of Holy Night...a song that really suit for day like this (to add the Christmas mood in this entry lol)..What can i say, Celine Dion really makes this song sound more angelic :)
Wah, the time really flies without warning..it's not a joe! (but why would it be a joke, seriously what's wrong with my head ishhhiy)..Now why i dragging the time issue here, it's all cos little Kael can already SIT! haha that little baby boy now claiming for his posture..Ouch, i'm hepi yet a little sad too (Beh, am i his mum o what to feel like that!..but still i'm his ah yi hoho, so kinda logical i guess lol)..cos soon he's going to start crawling, take his 1st step and running around..and then, he's gonna turn NAUGHTY right? well, that a boy we talking about..But whatever..
My mami just send me this (which the main the reason why i'm blogging right now)
Lately, i think his face gradually to
look like Mr Fei Mou~
I'm going home tomorrow..So that i can go to the Christmas' mass at my hometown church..you see, our church is big, so also the Christian community which make it an event you cannot help but to attend it :)
OK then..May your day being bless by the Farther in Heaven.
"I am poor and needy."- Psalm 86:1
We're thankful for the blessings, Lord, You give us day by day, Now help us show your gratitude By walking in Your way. -Sper
World is occupied with all types of living things..Among them is human..But human can be categorized in too many types of personalities that sometimes can make you really SICK to face it..
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But what to do, no matter what, you still bump into those 'type' that didn't fit well with your own personality..So that kind of clash surely lead to some arguments, conflicts and arise some issues..Which can be avoid if both party being considerate to each other..try to understand the overall situation and never come up with some assumption which lead to wrong judgement that may hurt other..right?!
Well i'd found some interesting quote..I don't even clear whether it's match with my entry..but i just like to put it here :)
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But that's part of the human nature..
Some can FORGIVE, some choose to hold GRUDGE..
Some choose to live in PEACE, some rather be in WAR..
Some always tell the TRUTH, some always makes up the LIES..
Some like to appear HUMBLE, some love to show off their WEALTH..
Some stand for thing called JUSTICE, some never follow the rule and DENY it!
Some fear to GOD, but some always mock and laugh bout this matter...
GREEDINESS..POWER...MONEY..POSITION..Always blinded the FOOLS!
It's just a matter of time now..
To PROVE which side WILL win!
To SHOW which side is RIGHT!
To UPLIFT the TRUTH!
Well, i'm just saying..No offense.
"Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day."-2 Corinthians 4:16
Do we live our lives for what will last Or for what will fade away? Are we striving for the world's praise Or for Christ's 'well done' one day?-Sper
Today we got NO class..Actually for this week there's only ONE and only class left, which will be on this Wed..So as student, supposedly i'm using this time to make some revision but it seem like i rather relaxing myself than open up the books and lecture note there..After all, next week is the official study week..Oh no! i forgot, isn't it Christmas next week..but whatever, it's not like i'm gonna go to the real WAR zone which need me to make 100% preparation right..Geez, what a thought huh?! Super irresponsible student..but can't help it..They shouldn't organized the exam right after the Christmas and New Year at the first place..I wonder how i'm gonna cope with all this stuff once i enter the working world..Since i'm aware that u need to get approval for holiday, cannot skip the working hours as you wish compared to when u are student..or else the boss gonna kick ur ass outta there..
Well whatever..actually i got so many stuffs to spill out from this little brain of mine..But since actually we don't actually get the full right to say anything that gonna stagger some organizations, so i better keep my mouth shut..but don't mean that my hands are tied..NOPE! i might be can say anything but i believe i can do something at least.
Okay, i guess i'm gonna diverging from the real intention i start writing just know..but whatever..it's the piece of my mind anywhere..I just found out about organization called UBF stands for United Borneo Front..Well i'm not actually wanna do some political view here, but just taking some of the fact from this organization 'issues of concern'!! which about the ILLEGAL immigrant..Trust me, nobody ever like the term 'ILLEGAL' in their life book (unless the wrong-doers of course)..I do respect with their works, but NOT to their attitudes..Well it's not like all of them are bad people, but more likely to be so..The numbers actually arising, but somehow they keep arising but i wonder why it won't decreasing..A fact u cannot deny, can u?! Everytime i go to the shopping malls, i would definitely bump with the illegal immigrants. Why i know they actually the illegal one? Because, it's super OBVIOUS!!
But what's surprised me the most is the identification card issue..Why would this kind can easily get the thing which has been made especially only for the citizen as a recognition that we are the real citizen for this place..why is such thing can actually ever happen?!! Isn't it NONSENSE! Well as one of the people who lived here and get a clear view of what's happening around us, the 'other people' actually cannot blindfolded us, cos somehow we actually know the real truth..even there are so much things been done to cover it up from the public eyes, we still know 'What U guys Did Last Summer'-kinda trademark..But what's even annoyed me is when people act like nothing ever happened!! Have you guys ever think the long-term impacts you will experience in another 10 or 20 years later? If so! How about if you can actually feel the effects of ur own ignorant few years later, more shorter than you ever think of?!!! what u gonna do then?Crying? Mourning? Regretting? But if u do so, can it change anything when things actually already happen?!!!! Like those 'people' won't laugh for your ignorance! but all u can do that time is to put face full of regret!
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People know the truth! the real truth!!! What's going on! Why it happen! Who make it easier! When it started! Where they get it! can say that most of the Sabahan know bout it..But some prefer to do nothing cos they think it will not affecting their life for now! So sad, why would u guys only think what may come for u right now but not tomorrow?! Tell u what, it seriously won't affect u today! But the real fact that other always told u what the outcome maybe, surely gonna SLAP u right on ur face..well, if u don't have the capability to leave this place of yours, you better start to CONCERN bout what this place may turn out in the future!! So that u can continue to live here in peace and without your own right violated by other people, who actually DON'T have the right to do so to begin with (well that's only be a fact if u don't get them a chance though)..
Or else don't come and cry out about ur ignorance later..cos we will only can said this word to u back 'I TOLD u so, but that's ur very own FAULT why things turn like that!'
Well i really love this state of mine since it's one of the place which has multiracial people who lived peacefully , without any argument concerning with the sensitive issues..If it exist, well it will surely due to the outsider influences..and the narrow-minded people who trying to take this place down and so full of hatred in their soul for peace, but still claiming they do it for good! Geez, there's nothing good bout it..why would they cannot realized such thing!! *sigh*
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Lord, to You i prayed, to protect this land so that any types of wrath, evilness, wicked plans and exploitation can be send far away from here. Open those eyes and hearts of the people so they can clearly see the outcome of their ignorance so that they have the chance to make it right. Keep this place from the evil-doers O Lord, cos there's nothing impossible for You. In Jesus Christ, I prayed. Amen.
Actually i'm so lazy to write anything..but then, considering what's happened today..Then i guess i need to post it here in case in the future i may forget bout this..
Today we went to mass..my sisters went to another sit, while i went straightly to the 3rd line sit from the front row..So with no doubt, i got a clear view to what's in front..So today, the one who gave out the homily and conducting the mass was another Farther who i never go any of it's mass (well he might went to our church but i happened to not attend it, who knows)..It's the first time i ever go to mass and heard something refreshing and i could say been revitalized by the Farther's words this morning! Well i honestly needed it i guess..I think God really want me to attend this mass since everything went smoothly for me as i can going back home..well lately i didn't go back since i were so annoyed with some things back at home..But i don't quite sure what's push me back home and the eagerness of me wanna go to the church at my hometown this week..So once i experienced that rejuvenating mass, then i think i know it already..It's God's will..or else what was that, right.
Oh i did went home yesterday..And the very first thing i did was to find my little cuzie, Amor (well that's is her real name though, AMOR)..She was there, in front of the main door..just finished her bath i guess, with her sister running and following her at the back to put some baby powder on her..But i guess the sister got so tired so she took her down and laid her on the cushion hahaha..Cute pair though..So i shouted her name and went straight to them..Oh forgot to tell, the other sister was the one to notice me coming home (well usually i go back home every week, it's only lately i didn't~for almost 1 month only though) and heard her reporting inside with half-shouting that i was home (that's why i saw the other 2 at the door might be)..But Amor barely remember my name..I asked her to say my name but she forgot T_t..though she still following me around with her penguin WALKS! ahahahaha, geez why that girl is soooooooooo ADORABLE hah!
Then i searched for my nephew..But that time he was brought by his parent to store so i didn't see him on the spot..Once i throwing all the heavy stuffs of mine (including the unwashed clothes that i brought home Lol~), i went to meet up with my aunts and cousins who busied cooking and preparing lotsa things (it's my eldest brother's wedding that day)..then only heard bout my cousin's car crash last monday?! Geez, his fiancee got injured and unable to talk for 2 days..Seriously, i know nothing bout that (considering we're close)..
So once my nephew got home, i cannot help but hugged him so thight (for a while though) or else he will start his own concert which i will not pleased since his expression so ugly hahaha..but he can be easily comforted and laugh, so not a big trouble for me haha..the best thing about little Kael is, he likes to be taken picture with..If he see the camera, he will automatically stare directly on it! that's why i like to take his pictures..I got so much collection of his pictures actually Lol~ Arh, i forgot to take his laughing pose from my mum T_t i actually plan to put it on here..But nevermind, there's still next time..i'm gonna upload it though, just a matter of time hoho
See..the Master of Staring Cam! Lol~
Amor trying to find water since her mouth was stuffed with cakes~
Then..Christmas is closer and getting closer..So i listened to this wonderful song of Christmas in my sis' car but i was so lazy to ask her..Luckily i recognized that is Lea Michele's voice..Hoho and just know i found the video song in YouTube..what's cute about the lyric is when they sang out the line 'i'm gonna party on til Santa grant my wishes'..when they realized actually Santa isn't exist after all! Now, i'm in the Christmas mood! can't wait for it especially for the Christmas Eve's mass..when all the Christians gather in the Church and reminiscing what the Christmas is all about..Well it's not for the sake of CELEBRATION solely! But to remind us, the Christian, about our Saviour's birth to the world..
Just got home from cinema..My sis brought us to watch movie..I thought we gonna see Tom Cruise in action, but it turn out they actually bought New Year's Eve tickets..and i were not so excited bout it at first, since i wanna watch adrenaline-rush-kinda-movie..But right now,i'm gonna say the opposite bout it..Well, it's so funny..got some lessons there too..amazing actresses and actors who make the movie felt real..And yaep, really love it..:) There's another cover of Auld Lang Syne by Lea Michele!!
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Oh last night we went and slept in Tang Dynasty Hotel..Actually on our way to go there, we actually bumped with FIREWORK show!!!!! God, i didn't even expect that..What's amazing was, we passed that area coincidentally at the very right moment and able to watch it until the last firework! Lol~ i thought i'm so lucky yesterday to experience that..Since last Wed i saw meteor shower, and last night i saw firework..but tonight i only saw a NEON light though hahaha..
I did recorded some part of the firework show (poor quality though!)..Mmh, ignore the noisy background that came from my mouth..Well, i cannot shut my mouth to express how amazed am i that time, can i? Moreover, i already said to Terac to put it in here (lame excuse, but indeed it's the truth :p)
Oh about the hotel, for a stay of 100 bucks/night..i think it's worthy..Plus they provide hair-dryer and amazingly to my surprised, a HOLY BIBLE too!! well maybe it's a normal thing for u guys, but it's my first time to go to a hotel who put Holy Bible in the room..Seriously, to all the hotel i'd ever went to, i never see any Bible put at the table unlike this hotel.
Oh we went to lunch at Palm Cafe today and i guess they have quite tasty food there..
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my lunch meal..with Chinese tea of course! :)
Top : Mine Below: my sis
But eventhough it's tasty..Still my stomach cannot comprehend with a lotsa stuff..that's what makes me ALWAYS left some leftover!! eventhough i don't mean too *sigh*
Then for dinner, we went to Food Court where i got some mis-communication there..but luckily it turned out good after all..Well let me explains..At first i wanna have the simple 'grilled pork rice'..but the tauke said they ran out of the grilled one..So i asked what's the meals that both of my sis taking..cos it's too loud around there i cannot heard him properly..So actualy he recommended me something called 'popchop' to my hearing..i though he spoke in Chinese and i were just not in the mood to eat (plus there's a lot of people qued up that time too), so i just nodded to whatever he recommended me with..Then, he gave us number to wait for the food..So suddenly the tauke called me,
"amoi amoi, 'popchop popchop'..u punya."
Well the other we called by the workers, so i thought migh be he also actually knows that i no nothing what that 'popchop' he talking about..So i went and then first i said what's this? (in my heart though) But it's looks yummy!..So i brought and shown it to my sis and cannot do anything but laugh..I remembered there's this passerby who happened to pass that time, actually suddenly laugh too..I didn't know why she did that..might be she saw me like a fool there T_t
but actually my meal was 'pork chop rice'...not 'popchop' or something weird to eat lol~
Itadakimasu~
I found cute Christmas tree in metrojaya store (though it's the fake one haha)
Last but not least..For all that I'd experienced, ate and went today, I'm so THANKFUL to the Lord for He gives us out the protection and blessed our day :)
"In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."-1 Thessalonians 5:18
The world is filled with so much good That's brings us joy and pleasure, But true fulfilment only comes When Christ we love and treasure.-Sper
December 15, 2011
My day start only after I woke up at exactly 10.32 AM in the morning..Didn't I said I need to meet my supervisor?Yeap I did. However, I overslept lorh..Obviously. *sigh* I went to slept at 3 something today..So I thought I can managed to wake up exactly at 6.40 AM..Well, I even ste my alarm..But this rocky-head won't listen..So then once I read my friend's text and asked me whether I already go and meet my supervisor..That's when I noticed I were actually FREAKING late!! So I were like kelam kabut to text my supervisor (and actually forgot that he actually had to examine my other coursemate's project that time)..asked him if i can meet him and give the copy of my project's method at the afternoon..since it's a lunch break, so he should be free right (well at least that what i thought)..Instead he said,
REALLY?!!!! Wah, so lucky..that's mean i don't need to waste my energy to go to school and send it by hand..So I were actually so happy..Then my friend said that our supervisor actually wanna hand us a new method for our project..Since the other examiners asked us to review back our methods..So yeap, I went and texting him once again and asked him whether he actually prepare a new method for me too.Then he said,
"Ya"
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oh shoot! That's mean i still need to go and take it lah..So to avoid being mad on for keeping asking, I told him once he free and present in the office, he can ask me and my other friend (the left two who still didn't take the new method) to come and take that thing from him..That's when my clock said it almost reach noon..So he replied,
"OK"
So then without the thought he gonna text me very soon (since he can say back then, come and meet me this lunch break right..cos i even asked if i can go at 12 something)..But exactly at 12.26 PM he asked us to come and take the method and only give us until 1.00 PM..And I were like, no you gotta be joking right..Well since the bus service at our uni is so freaking "EXCELLENTLY ANNOYING"..So i asked my supervisor to extend the time..Tell you what, definitely won't make it in 30 minutes..Since I still need to dress up, even it simply take a clothes and jeans, grab my bag..Still I'm a forgetful person, so I need to check out every important things that have the sign of "must-bring-together"..Plus, i need to work on my untidy hair too..Since i didn't gifted with beautiful, silky and smoothly hair.
So i managed to wait for the bus at 12.40 PM..There was a bus..But the line was amazingly long, so i didn't make it..Then only after 20 minutes later there was another bus..Still only 1 bus..For thousand students living in the same hostel and have the high probability to have the same time of classes..Tell me why you only provide us with 1 BUS for every 10 minutes?! No, it 20 minutes to be exact!!! So in the end, i take the outsider bus..At least these buses always came for anyone who wanna go to the city..So i always actually take this bus to go back and forth to my hostel from school..or either around..So i managed to meet and got the new method..*phew*
Then on my way back to hostel, i bumped with my friends..They actually going to present their respective project..Instead going back, i made decision to go and watch them..Then one of my friend said..
"Napa ko datang..Sa x datng pun time ko present..Balik balik"
Hahahaha..she's actually nervous..plus it's only a joke..But I'm glad i went and spent my time there watching them..Since i got a little info on how the most-terrifying-and-unwanted Doc (who became one of their examiner) asking students..What's exactly she focused on..stuff like that..So next time, if I have her as examiner, at least I'll come prepare and not so scare to her..Well, that's what I think for now.
So..suddenly my sis also had texted me and said that she gonna come and fetch me up..She came then..So right now I'm actually blogging at Tang Dynasty Hotel..cos we go and spend night here after went shopping just know..I were so tired back then..But right now i got time to lazying around.watching the night scenery from this window..which no more meteor shower T_t...Haha whatever..What i'm trying to say is just..we are FREE for now!! whatever happens to my project I, i don't have any power to make it change right..So I just keep my faith in Jesus and move on..May God bless me :)
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This a meteor that seen in America few hours ago.
I didn't expect i'm gonna experienced to see meteor shower in my life..Mmh actually didn't expect at all i can see it on the sky, at mu uni area..Well, that's life after all..Experiencing something unpredictable is part of the norm..
Even the eclipse, i actually can saw it directly from my dorm you know..I thought I were really lucky since I didn't need to trouble myself and go to the outside in order to get the best view of it..Since my study desk is actually the best spot to watch it..
But for this one, I need to get out from this room and went outside since the shooting stars came down at this particular one spot huh?Of course NO! It's randomly fall and we need to continually watched over the sky in case it happen to pass through..Well I saw it not once, also not twice..But THREE times..hahaha even it a small number but still i'm considering myself lucky..Well hey, my housemate came out earlier than us, but she manage to see nothing of what you called it meteor shower..So she just went back to her room..
The what you called as shooting stars:
It's not like what i picture with..Since the thing that we saw were like an object that emitted flash light where it traveled super fast..If you miss it like 1 second, then that's it..You truly MISSED it!! No chance to even see the form but the flash only..And once they screaming cos they saw one, the others who didn't see it will go like
"mana mana" and what's more funny is, there's this one guy, maybe he so frustrated or even annoyed cos didn't see any of it at last goes like this,
"mana BAH!!!" hahaha..Well i cannot help but burst to laugh..and imitating his over and over again! So mean of me.Lol~
Actually while i'm texting my mum, asked her to watch on the sky, there's this one which turn out to be the brighter compared to other..So that one of the kind which resembled like what i imagine with and always seen in the Discovery Chanel..But i missed it and only managed to see a glimpse of it..Like a camera flash passed through me..I only managed to hear the description of it..MAkes me so jealous cos didn't able to see it :(
But i sincerely thought it's so COOL! and AMAZING too! cos they managed to see it.. So then i went to Google and check the news of it, so it turn out that actually today will be the peak moment of the meteor shower..where people can see it up to 80 to 140 per hour..And so i thought, no wonder lah it's called meteor shower..Actually last night around 1 AM to 3 AM, my roomate's friend told her, she able to see a meteor shower where it continuously came down and even managed to take a snap of it..
Geez, what we doing last night?!!!! Well, i thought i were so busy back then preparing for my project's presentation..Slept at 2 AM and wake up at 4 in the morning..So tell me how can i get the chance to take a glimpse of the meteor shower that time..Plus, i even close the window and covered it with the curtain on that time..Which normally i barely close it up until the moment i'm going to sleep..*sigh* for someone who love to see the night sky full of stars, It a WASTE! for not seeing that T___t
But whatever..since i were happened to wake up and heard people screaming at the outside and somehow all the tension and the project's burden were gone, so there's nothing to worry about for tomorrow..So i got to spend an hour lifted my head to see the sky..Eventhough it's hurt my neck, but still it's worth of an action after all..*wink*
"Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."-Matthew 6:34
I just presented my project this evening..What to say, i got shot by both of the examiners..Unconsciously, i actually gave out wrong answer..Seriously I didn't noticed bout it...But overall one of the Dr said
"it's a good ideas you got there. BUT please make sure you know what's the requirement of your methodology" or something like that..
cos i did prepared myself to answer that kind of question..I didn't know whether it's the right interaction or the right scientific explanation..But at least i didn't left it blank..One of the Dr said my methodology kinda not make sense..I did asked my supervisor the same question and answered it a lil bit mixed with other fact, but they still bought it even it's not the solid and accurate answer to give with.. But last night I did read some of other studies and they doing the same method as I proposed..But who knows right..They're the expert ones..So I guess I gotta make and correct it any way..At least I still in the initial stage..Not yet start doing the real thing..
Oh Luckily, they only focused on that one part in my method, while the other who presented before and after me actually were rained by lotsa questions which me myself know nothing bout it..So I really thankful to God for that..Oh Terac did surprised by made some comercial time there during her presentation..Even the examiners cannot help but smile haha..
I were so nervous back then..but amazingly i didn't exceed the given time..not even in 10 minutes..Well, while i were practicing before this, it always never be on time..Since we presented our projects in the meeting room, we actually just sit..So the nervousness kinda gradually decreasing to the point I actually being in sane state while answering the questions..Haha
And I thought i'm gonna spending and wasting my time to watch anime and movies..But I got the text from my supervisor to drop the method that got a problem..And I need to do it tonight since he asked me to bring the paper tomorrow morning..Early MORNING to be precise..I even thought i wanna go to sleep until the sun come up..I mean really at the top of my head..But i think i gotta cancelled the plan..My precious plan :(
Actually i gotta lotsa problem in my project's content..Not to mentioned the method, but the other part too..And I were like felt I'm the dumbest student EVER..and I only noticed it yesterday..However, I pray for comfort and guidance..So as I woke up today, I think God heard me..So whatever happens, even it's HURT me to the point I cannot stand it..But as I rely on God, trust Him and keep my FAITH..somehow I managed to pass that moment and move on..Never blame God, cos sometimes all things happened are the results of my own action..and sometimes it gotta be happen since it's what have been plan out for me..Still I believe, God will never placed me in a situation that He knows I will never ever be able to surpass..Since He is the Father will never break His children into pieces..
Many sorrows shall be to the wicked; but he who trusts in the Lord, mercy shall surround him.-Psalm 32:10
In You, O Lord, we take delight, Our every need You can supply; We long to do what's true and right, So, Lord, on You we will rely.-D. De Haan
Today..emmh, more precisely it was yesterday! was our LAST midterm for this very semester!Yeppi~ dude, as always i only started my revision at the very last minute!!! well can't help it since we just so busy with our Organic Chemistry Process' midterm last Friday..then once i arrived dorm and login into my FB, got a shocking info..that our supposed-to-be-held final year project's presentation is shifted one day earlier?!! Yeap..The more shocking news is, me and my friends are going to present at the very first day!! But the good thing is..we are in the evening session! mean, still have some time to waste. Lol~ joking. Some time to make preparation lah for sure! Right now, i'm still alright with this fact that we are going to present~since it past midnight already, so my presentation day is actually gonna be~TOMORROW!! Arhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ the tense?! well actually to be honest, i'm quiet feel nothing bout it..But it's actually a feeling i feel, right now. Just for this time being only..But when the time come, i'm DEFINITELY gonna CHICKEN OUT! T___t
That time my soul, with no doubt, am going crazy and shout "Somebody, please Save me!"
Back to the point..It was our last midterm yesterday..Hahaha i know..i already mentioned it..Amazingly, i went to library and study there! Gotta surprised my own self too! The thought just pop out from nowhere to go there and stick my butt there so that i can concentrate and give all my eyes on the notes..which i done..but also cannot help myself from kept YAWNING over and over again..took a nap for a few minutes..unconsciously alluring my friend to do the same also by doing that :P (well i cannot fix my eyes you know..i just born with this sleepy-head..can do nothing about it (yeah right, like it cannot be change! lol)..But to think it back, it's nothing to be proud with..since the midterm was at 4.00 PM..meanwhile i just started revised only at past 11 AM!! So gotta cover the whole 2 chapters with so many acids and bases production processes, not to mention the salts too..BUT OMG, i forgot to study the Chlor-Alkali Industry..which contributed 35 marks!! *hit the head on the wall!!*
got bored..so i snapped pics
my notes..luckily that process i kept memorized over and
over again came out..save my 15 marks, but out of 70! *sob sob*
acting all serious huh..Lol~
Then, i met up with my supervisor this morning..For the first time after that super teary event that capable to suck all the tears inside my eye-bags..So at first i really hope he wasn't there in his office..Sothe first time i knocked it, there's no answer..So i was just like, thanks God he wasn't here..So it won't look polite to knock it once, so i knocked it again (since i were so sure that he wasn't there, so it won't hurt to do it once again~that's what i thought that time)..
But to my surprise, he didn't even angry..My supervisor didn't said a thing about my late submission..
Then i told him i were really sorry and what's gonna happen to my marks..Did i fail on this subject already?Will it really affected my overall marks then? He said it's gonna be O.K..Still, i'm not really convinced by that word..But whatever, i just put all my TRUST in God. Amen.
Oh shoot! I still don't make correction on my slides..I even promise to show it once again to my supervisor tomorrow..?! i mean this coming morning. Then, that's all the update of my boring life as student and as a person Lol~
Last night, i watched this movie called Heartbreaker..and i made some discovery throughout all it's soundtrack..One song that managed to make me spending hour to find it! well, that's me, can't help it..Instead of studying, i wasting my time to something vital huh..*sob sob*
Peter Von Poehl -The Story of the Impossible
"So [Moses] cried out to the Lord, and the Lord showed him a tree."-Exodus 15:25
*sigh* i guess it's totally a different thing to see something compared to when you really experienced it..d bitterness won't go away huh..i wonder why it acts like a nuisance here in my heart!! even i try and try and try to forget it...it keep coming again and again and again and continuously!! Seriously, i tried so hard to throw away all that stuffs from my mind..But i wonder why?!! Why it didn't work as i wish!!!!!! It's feels like d sadness is overflowing and conquering this little heart of mine...Did it hurts?! O well..what else can i say, it's a REAL pain!! d pain that me myself didn't know how to describe..
so from last Tuesday the only song i kept listen to is this~ CONTINUOUSLY!
Ku Masuk Ruang Maha Kudus
cos my heart really troubled right now..i can't cease it away nor do i wanna keep it inside my heart or it may turn me upside down..when there's still a lot things to do...so i just wish and pray i can keep myself back on the track and move on...it's sure gonna take a time..but i'm willing to wait..rather than i lost my faith..
God i really need Your guidance and comfort words and love. Help me to cease away all the troubles in my heart and be free from it. I'm leaning, relying and put all my trust on You. Bless me with Your grace so that i can live the way You want me to, accordingly. In the name of Jesus, i prayed. Amen.
Yaep, i'm definitely screwed up my project I, which something i didn't see coming at..but i know i'm at FAULT..i'm really DISSAPOINTED with myself!!
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sometimes, the confident u got that you gonna make it on time can really eat you up..like what i did..even the simplest things can stomped me down..Again, my supervisor already told me like hundreds time already to make my draft like the real one but i always said to him it's gonna be alright. it's ok, no need to worry bout it..i got it..and only concern to the content! but in the end, thing i thought trivial is somehow the OPPOSITE! but what to do, even i regret it so much and cried out all my tears..there's NOTHING i can do bout it and NOTHING gonna change the fact that i'm screwed!!
i don't wanna tell my supervisor bout it actually..but fate is really a "FUNNY" thing..since out of thousand people who study and teaching there, HE's the person that i met COINCIDENTALLY??!! well, definitely i got a reward then, a SARCASTIC words..but after all, it's all my FAULT here..so even he said nothing, i already know bout it..even i regretting it, i cannot do anything bout it..even i said a word, it wont change anything..EVEN I....*sigh*
Conclusion~ never ever treat anything as TRIVIAL!!
Same goes like the girl's heart theory i guess..
Boys sometimes think their girls are just a nuisance..
Mad over something! Jealous over somebody! and stuffs like that..
But indeed, girls always got a better reason to do so..So to treat the girl's heart inappropriately, you may lost her someday..so it's same goes to the format that and simple stuff that my supervisor highlighted! i didn't lost it of course, but i did burnt away my marks..which a huge deal for me!!!!
But i think all the bad things that i'd experienced in this life makes me even closer to God..since i read my Bible, but not everyday..(but i always said those 3 prayers everyday and before i sleep)..and sometimes i skip mass due to the reason: i'm BUSY! and things like that..i even don't know how to say it in word.
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However, when i face something that saddening me, i always turn to God first..well, i truly believe everything happens got it's own reason..God's already planning everything out..So whatever happened in my life, still i have HIM..that's the mindset i have, and it's the major influence that bring my SMILE back! So have FAITH, since God will never forsaking you..Sometimes all things happened, He turns you on that so you can take a lesson on it..make use of it..repenting..
"Stand in the ways and see, and ask for the old paths, where the good way is, and walk in it; then you will find rest for your souls."- Jeremiah 6:16
Life's fractures can be mended, By faith in Christ the Lord- At first the pain but then the gain And usefulness restored.-Hess
Well i don't get any sleep yesterday-turn-today so i'm pretty exhausted..
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The case was, i were so focused doing my draft last night since i gotta show it to my supervisor today.which then i didn't go to the internet just until around 10 pm like that..and then once i checked out our wall course's group, that's only when i realized we need to submit our field trip report by tomorrow~means today (which we'd been told previously the submission date is on the 9 of Dec, well although it actually a 'was' then)..and same goes to my handphone, where i forgot to change the profile back to normal mode (since i got class until 6 pm yesterday, so i muted it) so i didn't aware about the sms Terac sent me few hours earlier about the info..so then once i finish the line out for my draft, ran to print it out..re-do the other chapters so that i can ask another opinion from my supervisor either it is right or not..cos i really wanna minimize the possibility of me going to be shoot by a lots of question during my presentation next time..well i'm not a good presenter..if i am, then i won't bother to take this course but go for the multimedia instead..but whatever..then continued doing the field report until morning..
Since my supervisor asked me to meet up with him on 8 am in the morning, so then i need to rush to go to the school..well waiting a bus in the morning is actually not a favourite activity of mine..once i took my bath was the moment i realize that i actually SO tired that i could die to buy a moment of sleep.. i felt like the world is spinning while i went out and once i stepped on the ground, i thought i stepped on a cloud..i even slept while waiting for the bus..STANDING!!
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So in my supervisor room..he kinda in the bad mood i guess, he even raising his voice and use SARCASTIC words..for a girl who kinda sensitive with whomever raising their voice and super tired, encountered with such situation..i were about to cry already but i kept my cool side..after all, why would i show it to person who even know nothing about things that i went through and all..but well, it's part of my FAULT too since i'm doing all my tasks at the VERY last minutes..but he's actually a good person, but change into that one once he checked my messy draft..with the format all turn upside down (since it's just a draft so i didn't really pay attention to it..cos i only concern with the contents, is it O.K or K.O)..got some another tips to make it better though..
Then i went to the lab to checked for the brand and model of the instruments that i gonna use in my study, which i met up with the Master student..there, i were asking her nicely while she actually had nothing better stuff to do since i supposed she's waiting for the experiment she run to complete..so she's only listening to the music..i asked her what's the model is, and she gave me a replied, with an annoying tone.
FCTI
what an attitude!..so what if you already got your degree and now in your way to get your Master..will it make you feel proud of who you are by doing that?oh please..it won't make you higher in God's eyes, would you?..have you ever consider about that? You isn't an immortal honey, at any moment your life may come to an end you know..You may regret it later, but what's the point then..and the adult, isn't they actually got pay to do their works..why would they go and chit-chatting leaving their workplace then, on top of that, don't let people see you if you are lazying off..it makes me furious..
And i didn't know why today's morning was so FREAKING hot!! it's really the few hours of SAHARA moments for me!! put that aside, i were actually waiting the bus for about 40 minutes in the least..my my, i wonder when the service will be upgrade..So since it's too hot, i cannot even steal a moment to sleep at that time..so i kept listening to hillsong (i really need those comfy words since i were really so not me that time) eventhough my eyes really hurt and were about to explode..i saw the clouds, and i really think
" it will be great if i can sleep on that thing rite know"..so then i took a picture of it..
once i got into my room, throwing all the stuffs i brought out today and went to sleep..cos i were about to pass out anywhere..
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only woke up at 6 p.m..so i really wanna entertain myself a bit so i watched this movie, which recommended by my roomate..
RAMONA and BEEZUS
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well, it's worth to watch ..it's simple yet so funny and i really like the overall theme..though Selena Gomez's character doesn't really prominent there, although the character's name is part of the title..but the Ramona is quite a character..She's cute, unpredictable, called a trouble-maker but actually a high spirit girl..
Watched this movie really ease me a little..
"Tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope."-Roman 5: 3-4
When trials intrude to slow down your life, It would be easy for you to give in; But by perseverance you'll overcome strife, So just keep on plodding-with Christ you can win. -Branon
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