My Methyl Red Preparation

Today is the last day of the very first month of the new year..Well it's the 31st of January. So what?Nothing actually, just wanna do some crap~ing here hahaha..Phew, at last I'm actually back to normal huh haha. Well today I was there in the lab, trying hard to make some progress for my final year project..I didn't really expect the thing that seem so simple on that paper (the method's part) actually very TIRING and STRESSFUL..That step actually almost managed to make me cry~but like I said..only 'almost' alrite LOL cos somehow, thanks for one of my coursemate, I was able to solve that very seem-like-complicated-step-but-actually-not-LOL

The story goes like this (haha)..Actually I need to do some dilution~hmm to prepare a Methyl Red stock solution. But then, it turned out that methyl red (solid form) actually just sooooooooooo stubborn to listen and be what it supposed to be~it supposed to be completely dissolved but it WON'T which made me felt it's so absurd! Luckily in the midst of confusion, I tried to find hot plate at other lab..Well there, some of my coursemates doing their project there..Anddddd luckily, one of my coursemate, of course after heard my complaint, suggested me to dissolve it in the Sanicator..I tell you what, it's not like I kno about it exactly hahaha..I only know it is used to remove the gasses from soda like what we did last sem..But it actually can so I who actually super gay (if you somehow don't actually kno the other meaning of this very misleading word~it's mean soooooooo hepi ok) after heard that..also felt so grateful (I am, really!) at the same time..then, my task for dissolving and made the dilution process is a success..Yeahhh! Hmm actually my point is, I'm actually so stupid for not knowing about this thing despite of being a final year student Omaiiiiiiiiiiii sadis betul...Transferred it to volumetric flask and then actually I took unexpected time (which I actually spend long time) only to reach the meniscus line!!! Well, after all it's a success so once saya sampai bilik, suma pun rasa berbaloi so whatever la hahaha..

I'm freaking sleeping rite now but somehow I cannot resist myself to come here and actually writting rite now..cos back then, I was really really really determined once I reach at dorm, I will go straightly to bed and sleep like what I did yesterday..(I starting my project only yesterday~but yest only managed to prepare sample but it's not completely finish yet T_T)

Now, seriously I don't really think what I write something I wish to write. But instead of deleting this, I will just proceed to post it..cos this all thing I talk about somehow already consuming some of my time..it'll be a waste to remove it just like that..Damn, wateva..

Day Before CNY~

Well as usual, the day before CNY is the prayer for..i dunno what's the main purpose exactly ngehee..When I was a kid, I just remember we had this prayer session in the house, in front of the tapikong. In the past, I always watched my mama (my late grandma), ingkung (grandpa-mama's bro-in-law), bapa tua (my mami's bro) to start the ceremony by throwing some coins and read the signs from it. I dunno it very clear either. Then after that, all the family went and took some hiongs and then started pau-ing (that's what we'd called). Served the 2 glasses with 3 different drinks~coffee, alcohol and one more....I forgot! Then after that, we kids will be well-prepared to grab some cookies and sweets. Well, what do you expect from kids right Lol. Once everything done, we will go outside and burnt the white paper and money for the deaths. My dadi even bought some clothes and car too (made from paper) to burn along that session. Those things, back then, we believe will go to the family that already passed away, I mean their souls. So if we go and burnt a lotsa money, car and outfits, then they will be among the richest souls lorh. Hahaha, well that's what the elder told me. Then my dadi would ignited that long and red firecrackers, always made me felt tuli for a moment.

But all this thing already became a memories. Part of my life. My childhood's life.

Now, the only Buddhist left among my family are 2 family~my 2 aunts and their family then my nenek (my late mama's sister~my dadi and aunts/uncles called her ah yi). So we stilll celebrating it, though it's not held in my house anymore. I tell you, back then my house was the most merriest CNY house in our area cos basically all the family gonna gathered at our house. But *sob sob*, as I said, it's in the past. Still, it's not like I don't like my life right now. I just miss the dapat angpow part hahaha.

This evening we went to my aunt's house. It's a common thing for us to gather at family's house on the festive day. Stuffed my angry stomach with foods, cookies, drank some wines and forgot-not-to-mention, limau mandarin Lol. But sadly I didn't gt angpow since I am considered as an adult.Angpow only for a kid in this area sob sob sob. Before we went to my aunt, I snapped some of pics of my cutey cuzie and bikin girigitan nephew haha.

First I represent, the solo photoshoot? pfftt, yeah right :p.

Hip-hop version~ Mr Kael Lol

Then Amor saw me took Mr Kael's pic, look how she staring at me haha. So I back off a little that I can included her and caught her expression and put here in this pic. Mr Kael so eager to pose that time Lol.

I love this pic soooooo much  >.<

 

Hug~ So sweet orh!

   So I asked her, did she wanna took one (since she always refused me or made some weird face haha). So I told her, made cute face and she gave me this:

Big eyes staring me..what's up with the mouth?
haha so cute.

Then once again she didn't wanna left out Lol.

Even so, Mr Kael also tried his best to be noticed despite of
Amor went in front him. So cute combo!

A Day Start with Sigh~

Hmmhh..

It's officially the term break!!! But everything seem so wrong here and there. *sigh*
I still don't get any enough sleeping hours..Well it's understandable since if i look back the way i revised all my study for each paper...It's way tooooooooooo extreme. But that's what u need to do when u decided to have last minute and ONLY very last minute study! So before the last paper, I only got to lay my head for 2 hours and then continued my revision..Almost trip at the bathroom since i got to dizzy too..The last paper was yesterday morning..Luckily I managed to answer some of them with 100% confident and some of them with -10 % hahaha..Since i got the answer all mixed up..*sigh*

Oh then Nurul brought me together for lunch..Then met with my 2 other coursemates (close-friends of Nurul). So i was ordering Chinese tea, and he said 'Macam nenek tua'. Hahahaha..Well i always got that look to people who doesn't know me. Then dia sambung, cube lah *all the delicious drinks that i forgot since i rarely ordering other than Chinese tea Lol*. So i told him, it's because i got gastric then i need to drink this after every of my meal. As i thought, he just got confuse and disbelieve hahaha..Well whatever. since this is the trait i got from my dad. Plus, it's actually helps me a lot to reducing weight hahaha.

So once i got back at dorm, i wish..hmmm actually really eally really wish to take revenge over the hours that i missed for sleeping. But distressing enough, i CANNOT sleep..But but but, i was actually freaking tired. My body ache all over the place. My mind went blank. Then i went to my friends and asked her for anime! A lotsa ANIME hahaha..And I got Running Man too, yeppi. At least these things enlightened me Lol. Then went back to dorm almost midnight and rushed to pack my stuffs. Then only after that my supposed-to-be-long-sleeping-hours time, then i got my sleep. Waking up, where my dadi promise to come at 9, but actually it's already 10.30 am!!!! And i went to check out from this room just now, and the staff told me that i never went to check in. And I was like, what??!! So i actually pretty worried now since i'm afraid they gonna remove my name from the hostel student list. Oh NOOOOOOOOO..palis palis!

Naaa...at last my dad called and told me such good thing. He's already like 5 minutes from here. Then, have a good and blessed day. :)

Pomeranian dogs..I want 1!!

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My stomach actually meragam since semalam..and I catually wanna go and visit Mr.Tan (the toilet) but surprise surprise..how can there's no water!! So to wait up for the water to come back (maybe he get stress too in the exam weeks huh), I wasting my time online..blogwalking, allkpop-ing, facebook-ing..while listening to the Dusun songs that i got from Pet last night (tQ for letting me lepaking at your room until midnight Lol) eventhough I understand nothing since I'm Kadazan (like stated in my surat beranak).. But we more exposed in Tatana than Kadazan so yeah, i don't know Kadazan language either. But i found there's nothing interesting happening in facebook (well, i'm just a lazy girl to stalk on other people's fb anywhr..just go visiting only to my friends' walls~i mean real friends!)..until one of my friend posted a video about this Pomeranian dog.

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 Aren't they sooooooooooooooooooooooo cute!!! How can I resist that cuteness! So undeniably kiut I want to picit-picit!

Well let add one more pic!

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This is Boo, the Cutest Pomeranian Dog.

Amazingly, I heard this dog even has it's own page in Facebook (obviously, it's created by the owner or people who adored this cute dog Lol), Youtube channel and people who love dog always talk about it. So here i am, although just a brief, still talking about him/her (i dunno what's d exact gender hehe)..since i'm a dog lover haha.

Ohmayyyyyyyyyy God! Once i saw the post, i was actually instantly fall in love with them! Mami, I fall in love with this kind of breed and I want it so badly! I want ONE T.T. Right now. Right here. But yeah I know i know..Wait until I finish my study and own my own house, then I can do whatever I want. Whatever I like. Whomever I need. Especially a dog! Emh something isn't right. Oh I see. No no no..not a dog, but DOGS! Lol.

Oh I heard the water's sound. Finally! Then, have a nice and blessed day. God be with us, always :)

P.S I love You

I just finished watching this movie..PS I love you..Yeah I know it's such an old movie..But I just got it like early this semester, and since we busy with all the assignments and project I (which it's not worth for me to work my ass on it since at last it turn really disappointing)..And I got these positive comments from all my friends and sister too, said that it was such the best love theme movie yet sad too..So I save this movie for the best moment that I might have (which it turn to be today!)..well, in this way, I could really watching it peacefully..I mean there's nothing to worry about..no assignment to pass up, no meeting with the supervisor, no class for tomorrow..since the next paper only gonna be next Thursday.

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Enough with the talk..O yeah, this movie really sweet! but it's freaking SAD!!! too. The moment where Holly got the first audio from Gerry (the dead husband), the tears just naturally flowing down without me even realized when the exact moment it was actually came out. Really! It's such a sad scene where I cannot help but felt sorry for her loss too. Well, I completely forget that it was actually a movie. A scene from a movie! A characters that portrayed by all Hillary Swank! Still, it's just felt so real and yeah, I got carried away.. andkept wiping my eyes throughout that 2 hours..But it's not like I crying for every second of it. You get what I mean? Well I don't even know what I'm talking about already..But whatever.

But I think this movie is really inspiring. And there's too many lines that make me stop for a moment and take a consideration over its facts! What's else do I expect? The one who writing is actually a human too. Experiencing all sorta things in life and making observation from her/his own spectacle and it's put in a movie. Again, what the thing I actually trying to say. I know what I mean, but it seem like to short for someone to figure what actually i'm trying to say. Geez, keep typing things that seem insignificant. Yet i think it is. Ah, confusion start to strike me. Gotta back to my point.

Oh yeah. It's PS I love you. Well, it's a dream for every girl I guess to find this Gerry-like husband. But certainly, the one man who can loves, respects, tolerates, guides and always be there for you and and and....grow old together! Cos, yeap it's true when Holly said

"This wonderful man happens to me..and then..he died! what was the point?"

I'm just glad I save this movie up until now. Well, maybe I being a left out for doing so, but as long as I can enjoy every second I spend for watching it..anything else became not a matter to me. 

I guess Gerry was someone who keep this in his mind:

"Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others."-Philippians

Love is not blind but looks abroad through others' eyes,

And asks not, "Must I give?", but "May I sacrifice?" -Ziegler

~Exam Day Facts~

Last night I slept after it already past midnight..So then, since my paper gonna be on 2 p.m (apparently, it's a couple hours ago), so I planned to get up at 4 in the morning (woo, it's similar with Gwen Stefani's song huh. Lol)..But what exactly happened was:

Alarm : 4.00 AM (Big Bang's 'Oh Ma Baby'..hahaha) 

well, GD is my scandal you know. So listening his voice everyday is a must!! LOL 

(You: yeah right..whatever)

HOWEVER...instead doing what i supposed to, i betrayed my plan! Well, rather than push the "Stop" button, I went for the "Snooze" one..I kept doing it without realizing that it actually already 6.30 AM!!!! O shoot! Like a zombie I crawled on my table, grabbed my specs, making tea..then, revising. 

Didn't have note for this subject (except what we managed to catch up during lecture~but honestly, me myself didn't really know where that papers already go)..So i GREATLY depend only with all the past year question papers and answering it..by of course, GOOGLE~ing all the information and hoping might find the exact one..But you know what, i spend so many hours only to search the right one for 1 question!! Yeah, either i'm stupid or this GOOGLE is not like what's people always claim it to be~the biggest library in the world? Nah, I don't thinks so.

Clock: 11.30 AM

I felt like crying..My heart gone wild already..Feeling anxious and stress out! So i texted Terac to ask what time she gonna be at our exam place. Luckily, Nurul came to my room and be my savior by explaining me the whole principle of Sedimentation process based on EDL and Stoke's Law and Halt-Rouller Process. Both came out!!! Thanks God.

(Oh, we had our paper at the new lecture hall. It's sooooooo huge! Well, though it's actually the neighbor with my hostel, but i never make time to go there. My goodness, and it's my 3rd year in this university?!)

Since I was actually freaked out cos there's not so many input i managed to stuff in this little brain..so i went pretty messy like the one who just got up from sleep, cos I minimized all the other time-consuming activities so that i have more time in stuffing all the scanning-with-crazily-speed notes that Nurul brought along her.

1.50 PM

Paper started. I took a glimpse on the question. *mata tekeluar* I didn't know even 1 thing of it..So there's another like 5 minutes, then i took some time to pray. Well, i was too nervous and hang there..To study a day before the exam is CLEARLY not a wise choice to do so!!! (I know it but whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy can I never stop doing it! *annoyed*)

2.00 PM

Paper started..anddddddddddddddddddd amazingly, I were able to answer it!! Though i left 2 questions. Which one of it I clearly know the answer of it~

I know the electrochemical process of NaOH production..but the question was plainly said "Chlor-alkali process"..It's the very same-geez-how-can-I-miss-it thing!!..But whatever..

Yes, i'm so in good mood right now. So i feel like wanna jot it down here, i mean what happening today..Paper which managed to crushed me since i didn't know what exactly should i study. The Applied Physical Chemistry paper and subject is now gonna be left as part of my memory. Officially over at 4.30 PM, once the i came out from the exam hall. Lol

OK, i'm not proud with what i did..by studying last minute..Still i cannot help the way i am.

So everytime it's the exam weeks:

Last minutes. Overslept. Blank. Blur. Gloomy. Distress. Anxious. Felt like wanna slamming my head on the table. Regretting all day long. Messy. Sad over myself ignorant. 

are always be my friends!

I wanna say my thankful to God for His blessing and for helping me in my exam..Not by cheating or what, but for giving me some comfort feeling inside me..and yeap, it help put me at ease..With that clear mind, of course, i managed to answer it. *wink*

"So Moses cried out to the LORD, and the LORD showed him a tree."-Exodus 15:25

I know not by what methods rare

The Lord provides for me;

I only know that all my needs

He meets so graciously.-Adams

~Mahua Waterfall~

Last week, instead of the fact that it supposed to be study week for me, i went to Tambunan along with my mum and my uncle's family..Well, it's a family trip..They planned to celebrate the New Year there..More likely we actually went there to  'buang soi' haha..To let go all the bad memories and whatever it is at a place far from home, so that we can move on and anticipating what tomorrow will look likes, and not mourning what yesterday was like..But my big goal was actually to go at Mahua Waterfall! Well i heard the rumour that this place is beautiful..Indeed, it is! I'm glad i came..

at Gunung Emas..

Oh before that, on the way to Tambunan, we stopped at Gunung Emas to wait for my cousin and his in-law (since they actually went diverging to have their breakfast)..As waiting, suddenly there felt like something has fallen on the rooftop and i was wondering what's that actually..It turn out to be a MONKEY coming down! There's lotsa people that time, some were resting and some were actually waiting for their relative (there's group of people who on the way to the wedding ceremony)..And there a small store there which selling corns, so it might happened the monkeys (apparently, there's another one came later) saw that, and went down to ask for food..

Look! I told u so..It already got one haha

It's Good nenek was the one who gave out the corn~:p

That's the story of 'The Monkey who got Corn from good nenek'. The End. Lol

Let's check out the moment we spent at Mahua Waterfall..The breezing wind was so cold, but we still went in and swimming around..Eventhough we were freezing there, but still stubbornly kept playing and staying there for another couple of minutes (the others already went ahead and resting at the small hut because it's so cold)..I got drown to 2 times..I thought I know how to swim, but apparently I was wrong huh?!

with my cousins~

Waterfallllllllllllll..here we come~muahahaha

It's feel like my mami was in Discovery Chanel Editorial Lol~

So hepi i can came here :)

me and my mum~

 

having fun~

my cousin and her girl~

 

kawaiiiii neh~ :)

Well i can confirm you that i was having fun that time..but then, i left out my revision time and act all ignorant T_T and now i'm suffering..It was my first paper this morning..I just so shocked once i read the questions..It's freaking EASY and SIMPLE yet what's surprised me more was..that's very simple thing was the one i skipped?!!! Screwed me! But whatever..maybe i'm not fated to be in this field anywhere..But i just hope..i can complete this senior year of mine! Eventhough i'm not excel in it, at least..just let me finish this. God please help me. Amen.

"I have calmed and quited my soul."-Psalm 131:2

There is quiet resting place,

Where peace and joy are found;

Where burdens may be laid aside

And faith and love abound. -Moore