Midnight talk?!

Here I am the only one left in this house who eyes are still wide open!! well, no surprise since I already got my evening sleep's for 2 hours..plus, I just drunk a cup of coffee so well..although inside this lousy head of mine is dying to sleep, but my eyes seem refusing the idea! sometimes me wildly guessing am I suffer for INSOMNIA?! well I have the reasons for this question pop-up in this +/- 15 cm brain..lotsa of reasons apparently :p

1st : though I terribly wanna have that pleasant SLEEP and having a nice sweet dream (of course without me taking any kind of coffee from what I recalled from my short-period memory of that certain day)..guess what, poor me STILL having the trouble to sleep!! it's really irritating!!

2nd : I'm in really exhausting condition where I really3 feel like gonna pass out but luckily never happen though (or else it'll be so embarrassing esp if you're in some other place..) But hey, some of the celebrities out there do experienced the real deal though..but as I heard the news mostly were from Korean entertainer like T-ara's Hyomin and even LeeTeukie from Super Junior also had been hospitalized due to exhaustion!( poor Teukie)..and  well I bet their schedules are really packed since they all are famous celebrities in Korea)

3rd : SIMPLY cannot get a proper sleep..although me myself didn't really get what's wrong exactly with me?!

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well rite now..emm is me being awake this time considered I'm experiencing trouble of sleep? the answer is I guess not..cos' I did just now, sipping that addictive beverage..!! plus, how can I drag my foots on DREAMLAND when the baby keep awake and starting his late night concert right on the moment..Oh yeah, it's my bro's newborn son..we having the new addition to the family..he just like not year! not month! but 3 days as his age..pretty vulnerable living thing which I still don't have the nerve to put him on my such fragile hands..dude, it's a baby..after all a (considered) NEWBORN one!! wait until he reach a week or more :p

Since I don't have a photo of him, so I just gonna talk about him soon after I have one..but if it is me, I probably but kinda of am pretty sure gonna take a lotsa pics of him after all..lol
Talking about photos, I have a lots of pictures actually both inside my phone, my laptop and others laptop I bet..just don't have the chance to ask for that pics..although I have, but I keep forgetting about it after a moment so I ended up still don't get it :p ..can't hep it since I'm such a forgetful person..even if I'm going out somewhere, I will for sure need to get these poor 2 foots of mine, out from the car (if I'm home) or just simply going back to my room (if I'm in hostel)..cos' no matter how confident am I, but STILL..I'll forget to bring this or that thing along..ish3 the one who at fault is obviously this Missy Mind but the one who need to cover it up are my poor 2 foots and body too is drag along! or else how I'm gonna supposed to walk and get my things! unless me transforming into Inspector GADGETA


Elele, I'm pretty out of topic rite now!..so back to my main point..what is then?! *scrolling up* ..right, the me who having sleeping issue..well since I'm in holiday mood and enjoying the really-free-life so it's not really bothering me if I cannot get my early sweet dream, well sometimes I did experienced a bad dreams..but most of all, it's turn out as HELLA NIGHTMARE if there's a creepy zombies or encountered with a serial killer with such exaggerated ways in killing people (pretty much like in that SAW series..*shoo3, go away!) that's why I stopped watching that kind of genres already..since it's pretty disturbing to this fragile soul of mine (which I just discovered after I really cannot continued myself  after such dreams cos' I'm afraid the real things gonna come out of nowhere and trying to eat me..ALIVE!!) *noooooo...even imagining it turn out really scary!*

Well compared to ghosts, I've been told this by a lotsa people already actually..if you yourself don't act such a snob and just plain stupid to get in 'their' line, then 'they' will not get in yours too..so as long as you don't interfere in 'their' territory then it'll be o.k (well I guess their also have a proper judgement regarding a thing) ..but if you wanna have such a foolish ordeal for your own-selves with 'them', then try it..but hey, it's all done by your own risk though!

However the case will be different if it's related to zombies (well as I google it, it's stated that the Resident-Evil-zombies and so many others from Hollywood productions are not really exist, but no matter how long they explain about this and that facts about zombies, the feeling of they might come and eat me up still lingered in me!)..well if they do really exist, how can they tolerate with you when they already called as zombies..a living corpse who have no idea what's they are doing, no ability to make judgement (if refer to those in movies) and who hunger for a fresh meats!!..and what's come worst is they even turn you to be one of them?! stupid zombies..why don't you let the one you eat just die in peace..their death will just be a waste since they will be awaken as an helpless liveless with such robotic and hideous way of walks (even Miss J from ANTM can't fix it!!), grumbling with such freaking scary sounds and act ridiculously wild-and-extreme as they've seen any living fresh meats! *shuddering*

And for human who having such undefined way of thinking and complexes in themselves, well I'm talking about a serial killer or to the similar with them..the freaking damn-it's-so-true and real fact is that these kind of peoples are REALLY EXIST!!..and another unbelievably true is the fact that somehow you will never been able to recognize them..cos' they are such like a chameleon..they might be the kind person who you  ever meet in life and really feeling grateful cos' you have the chance to know, but at the next day you might wish that you missed the chance to know such person!! cos' as you wish that thing, it's probably when they show you their true colors!! *palis2 jau2* Somehow these kind of peoples are commonly have no mercy at all toward their victims! and they too sometimes managed to get escape from such horrible acts they did to the victims..

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If it's was me who stand on the deck..
i'll rather shoot myself first b4 the zombies come n get me!

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a hideous multitudes of zombies!! *speechless 4 a moment*

And sometimes I wonder, what if there's this one crazy scientist doing his own experiments thing to produce the real zombies? nonono, might it only in my thought n don't let it be!!

Like what happened to Jaycee Lee Dugard who abducted for not a day or simply a month, but it's such a crap of 18 YEARS!! the sad thing was the abductor's house apparently had received an unwelcome visits from a police officers after they received a complaints from some of concerned neighbors, but somehow they not doing a thoroughly spotcheck  inside-out the house (reason: no warrant to do so)..but after all, poor Jaycee, who deserve to be treat like a real woman does, is now live her own life as she pleased. May God bless her journey of life.

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The cover page of People's mag- telling the exclusive story of Jaycee

These people, they might look like a vulnerable person, a successful in life one, nerdy, a geeky or anything, and having a criminal-look also doesn't excluded from the lists..that's why we should always being aware of our surrounding and pray so that we've been keep away form the evil-doers!! and society also should be aware and being more thoughtful and helpful in time of need, cos' sometimes without you realize it, even the vital thing that you think it is, might somehow become a major key to solve one case! some people might say it's such a pain in the ass to be involved in something that don't related to them..but try to put yourself in the victim's shoe, or their family condition for once..then you might see how important it is to lend a helping hand to those who need it! also, being cooperate will never harm you in any other way especially when you do it without really thinks of some gain, and just solely doing it out of humanity and as thought as one's another! cos' you know what, every deed that you've done will be somehow pay back in another way that you can't see coming, can't predict, and somehow a kind of repay that might help you in time of you needed it the most!! well, as one of Alicia Key's song told about- KARMA!!!

My, I didn't realize this..Gwen Stefani's 4 in the morning song really fits the whole situation rite now! and rite, almost 50% of this whole talking is about the unrelated thing that I wanna talk about, my kinda of Insomnia and another 20% goes to me out of track talking about another piece of mind at the very moment..another 30% left is about me stating about my actual-intention-entry..really, it's so much digression actually *sigh*



Words from Bible:


'I will both lie down in peace, and sleep: for You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.' -Psalm 4:8
'Open your hand wide to your brother, to your poor and needy, in your land.' -Deuteronomy 15:11
'In the multitude of counselors there is safety.' -Proverbs 11:14



I know not, but God knows:
Oh, blessed rest from fear!
All my unfolding days
To Him are plain and clear. -Flint

Unwelcome kilos!

Hahaha as i said we have realllllllllllly long breaks, which i felt bless Lol~ But over these 3 months, d very unwanted fats have accumulated all over my body without me realize it..i just know about it last night when i suddenly got this urge to stand on my aunt's weight-scale..well I guess it's not a surprised to me cos' all this time, as my almost-4-months term break which is going to end for about 2 weeks more (which is a sad fact for me :( ), I got nothing to do except  spending my time at home..it's not like I entirely wasting my break here at my house for all the time without going out or stuff like that, but it's not like I have ever do something that doesn't allow me from cultivating this fats inside me too lol..

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Well, i did make a plan back then to work as a part-timer at the golf's club near my hometown..but since the club is under the Korean management, and the only position available during my first week of holiday was as a receptionist at the chalet's front office department..which a position which u'll gonna exposed to the Korean bosses the most, unlike if u're working at the golf's club section..though i'm quite a fan of Korean entertainment, but i'm not a fan of the real drama, which I'm totally aware of, people face at the company because of some reasons! so to avoid being in the same devastating level with some of the people i know who work there, so i made the decision to not filling out the job application form that given to me at that time :p
p/s : unless there are Korean idols go n check in there, it'll be a different story though Lol

After all, the department doesn't allow someone who's only going to work for a short-period (although they said don't tell that u only gonna work there for 3 months, but i'm just so helpless cos' i dare not to tell a lie if i'm not that desperate to get the job :p )..plus they really having crisis over lack of employees since lots were resigning because some of this-and-that reasons, so i bet there's gonna be an overload works being left by the former one, and it's surely gonna be pass over to the remaining employees right..well as i'm exposed a lil' bit to how some of agencies at Korea treat their artists like what happened to Super Junior's Hangeng-he wanna terminates his contract and also the former 3 members of DBSK..

Source: http://www.allkpop.com/


So i think it's really not a surprise too if the same thing goes to the management over that place..but actually, it's really do happening at this time being! but it's not like all of them are pain in the ass and I don't really wanna put all the blame on them..In reality, bad people are EVERWHERE..cos' even a local people can be such a jerk..it's just happen that they being like that, and this brain of mine got the input about some unfairness happens at several agencies back at their home..so then i write about it..

So, that's how i ended being unemployed and just producing more and more fats than i realize hahaha :p..but i'm just a typical girl who's trying enjoying life to d fullest (although it's quite bored sometimes lol), so i'm not pretty concerned about the numbers (geez, it's only a number rite..) that appeared on the weight-scale, which apparently is much bigger number from my previous weight..well i did heard and told that i'm going to explode for eating too much, might being obese or so whatever it is, but for this moment i'm just gladly receiving a good things with a good attention that given to me ( well the good thing here is the food lor )..as long as it bring happiness to your own-self then it's not gonna be a fault at all (even if it's mean bring more fats lol)..furthermore,doesn't  it's showing that God really loves and cares for me soooo much! cos' He always providing me with a lot of good stuffs to fill in my stomach ahaha lol..
but somehow my weight gonna drop back again once i'm starting my new semester as a final year student in not less-than-3-more-weeks to go..since i'm quite sure my following days will be busier than ever that time since i'm going to start my project (huhuhu i really don't wanna do it, but can't help it)
speaking of which,  i hope everything going 2 b smoothly as the water flowing down from my house's tap and let the unwelcome obstacles lost in their journey to meet up with me!! AMEN.


'Be content with such things as you have.' Hebrews 13:5


O the sweet unfailing refuge
Of the everlasting arms :
In their loving clasp enfolded,
Nothing worries or alarms. -Hennessay

Market, Crowd, Tourists...and Street Kids?!

A couple days ago my dad brought me and my aunt to buy some fresh fishes at 'Pasar Pilipine'..

At first, I can saw some tourists, maybe that place has its own attraction to them, I don't know but they did like, walking over there and took pictures, smiling laughing and talking to one another..some even separated from their groups but managed to catch up..it's maybe some market toure to them..but if it were me, i won't put market on my list of tour! Oh, I also experienced some unexpected situation..well as I were standing waiting my dad and aunt (before the kids came), there was this one older man who's look likes at his late 40s, who's about to pass in front of me, but then suddenly..ewwwwhhhh damn! he shamelessly spat right in front of me and walked away like nothing ever happened! gosh, it's even in the middle of the path..! It's sooo disgusting and hey, that's really RUDE!! geez, i'm gonna deleting it from my memories..it's a VIRUS!

Pics I took during standing there like a statue.

So, as my dad and my aunt busy in bargaining and buying fresh fishes, I'm also busy in examining my surrounding..I got this thinking while being in the middle of that crowded place, 'Oh, so this is how the place is'. Then suddenly there's something that totally grasped my attention. A bunch of kids! Around 5 to 10 years old..well, if they are the typical boys and girls that wearing an uniform school likes several kids that passed me with their mums holding their hands firmly, probably searching for the right fishes to buy for their dinner meal that night, then it will not bother me even 1%..but, they're not! Those kids, each one was holding plastic bags..and they'll go all around the place to search for a customer..well, apparently a customer to buy their plastic bag..Each plastic bag is 20 cent..They'll all like to go behind every person who trying or going to buy the seafood there  and ask if they wanna buy the bags..well some were lucky and some were not..So there's these 5 kids among that group who standing not so far from me (well I'm not participating my dad and aunt and just standing and waiting at another not-so-far stall), they talking to this 1 of the kids and then I saw his hand was half-covered with bandages ( but one of the kids too, a girl, had those some exactly the same wound on her hands)..and they like talking to him to buy another new bandage since those on his hand already got loose..but what made me really sad was what his replied back to the other kids, 'I got no money' !!! and then he continued to search for a customer..but since he just a little boy around 6 or 7 years old, small and had a brown skin with his messy appearance, he's barely seen or rather said, neglected by the crowds who far more older, taller and busier to catch up with their own routine..so I can see how he didn't able to make any money..then suddenly he walk passed me and in no time he's now standing behind my dad and my aunt who at that time, well pretty busy in choosing and discussing about the quality of the seafood..then I saw him quite doubtful at first and he just standing there watching over my dad without saying anything..and then he asked if my dad wanna buy his bag or not..it's a good try but well as expected from my dad, the boy failed at his first attempt!

See what I mean! 

Then my aunt turn around and luckily she's willing to buy his plastic bag..but then my aunt can't find her coins and wish to leave..then at the time, there's another older boy around 9 years might likely was accompanying him, and come as a rescuer for the smaller kid telling my aunt that they did had the change for more bigger note, so in the end he able to sell his bags..then several of the kids who aware of that situation, came out of nowhere and trying hard to sell theirs too..but my aunt said no..still, she's gave each of them 20 cent from the remaining coins she has..they were around 6 or 7 kids at that time..then I saw the girl-with-the-wound-on-her-hand again, looked quite disappointed while watching the other kids (since she came late and we were ready to leave the place), so I just handing her 1 buck ( and I still remember her confused look when I refused to take her bag and said 'It's o.k')  and walked away..and as I chasing my dad who apparently didn't aware I'm giving out money to the girl and left (well he'll not gonna agree with that anywhere, more i might getting scold from him lol), there's another girl who chased after me and ask if I wanna some plastic bag..well since I'm running out cash, so i politely refusing it..

Well I'm always questioning myself when I met these kind of kids..If they do have parents of their own or not, if they are real or fake, if they're slave to some sort of group or truly trying hard to make money on their own to fill their stomachs or whatever it is that may pop up in my head..but I always got this thinking too, what if they actually treated as a slave! yeah maybe I'm influenced by some of the dramas and movies that I'd seen about how some of kids were abducted and then force to be a slaves or beggars and even worse..well I did saw a couple years ago, in the news, that these kids might being controlled and lead by some organisation or something illegal to do that selling things and being a beggars, so society should be aware and take notice about that to prevent it getting wild..but I did remember in one of the movies I saw, the one who unable to make any profit will be punished..being beaten up, smack or even worse they'll be mutilated!! As in the 'Slumdog's Millionaire' movie.

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The kids will be mutilated in purpose because it'll make far more greater effect to people than the normal beggars..it's cruel, but even if it's what rolling in the movie, it's might be reflecting the real side of the dark reality too! Who's know?!..People said to me, 'if u giving one of them a coin or 2, more will come to u and ask for more'..well, I know what they're saying are most likely the real truth..But sometimes it's just happened I handing out some money cos' maybe by doing that, I might be able to save them another day for being beaten up because don't able to make any money..well I found some statement that quite related with my post rite now, from Henri Nouwen..he said that, "hospitality, therefore, means primarily the creation of a free space where the stranger can enter and become a friend instead of an enemy. Hospitality is not to change people, but to offer them space where change can take place."..

And take a look at these:

it's over 10 bucks if i'm not mistaken, for each.

Marine plants-sea veges.

This one~almost 50 bucks for each!! and i like, WHAT?!

p/s : no offense, but what I've written here is solely about what I think!!

'If you extend your soul to the hungry and satisfy the afflicted soul, then your light shall dawn in the darkness, and your darkness shall be as the noonday' - Isaiah 58: 10

" Reaching out to needy people,

  Showing them our love and care,

  Is one way that God can use us

  To bring hope to their despair." -Sper

Death and Gone~

We having pretty relaxing life through these 3 months holiday..We even had gone to a family trip to Ranau-my family, and my aunts families and we really had a VERY good time that time..but then everything turn ugly last 2 weeks after we received a phone call from my aunt telling us that my bro and uncle were involved in pretty serious accident..which though it's such a heartbreaking fact but...my uncle was gone in that unfortunate incident..

Well it's a shocking news for us..but it's far more shocking and troubling for my aunt..But who don't since they have 4 children plus the youngest just celebrate her 1st birthday's party 4 months ago..make my lil' cousin just approaching the age of 1 year and 4 months...

I guess that is what  LIFE is all about..things that we never see approaching..once we bump it.."blank"..it'll make us shattered..we can see ourselves as fragile as a very thin glass in no time..the day before our day must be filled with laughter..but when the moon had gone and the sun take it usual place and starting the day as MR. SUNNY, even the day is so bright and what we called as a wonderful day ever, might be a day which made us cry the most out of the blue..well nobody can really ever read the future, ( but maybe the fortune teller can cos' there's a lot of people making their way out just to meet up with some fortune teller..but who know anywhere) so that's why, we human always encounter with so many things and from there we need to learn how to cope with it, to handle it, to fight it, to overcome it, to surpass it, to move forward, to be stay together, to be calm, to be rational and many more..but one thing that we shouldn't forget..is to lean on God, our Lord !!

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The Red Rose once did enchanting,
but now slowly losing its warm..
The White Rose has fallen,
and we wonder why it's losing its charm..
One soul is taken away from us shockingly without notice..
So we pray 'May the soul of my late uncle Rest in Peace'.

'I will never leave you nor fosake you' -Hebrews 13:5

"Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for the saints according to the will of God" Romans 8: 26