Life Changing Experience

As I walking in this path of life and experiencing the unpredictable and awesomeness yet hurtful in some ways but life changing journey, I did learn lots of things. Sometimes I stopped myself for a while and try to evaluate properly what exactly happening in my life. The bad..and the good things too. I realize I never happen to try understand people properly yet I just directly saying bad things bout him at first. As time goes by, and through the days I spent with people around me, I start learning and can keep up with their personalities. I start to tell myself, that everyone has their own character..and they just being themselves. Same goes for me..I always wanna people to accept me as the way I am, never ever questioning how I behave. Well, I now the LIMITATIONS o.k!!

Another stuff I did which I regarded quiet wrong is AVOIDING responsibility. What I mean here is when something happen, I try to put the blame on others!! Well, of course I'm not being active-member for this anymore. I just felt a sense of guilty for what I did in the past, so just wanna sort it out here Lol. 

If I happen to cause a chaos, I just apologize. Not pushing the blame to anyone. But only for thing which I did cos somehow I won't feel anything but uneasiness attacking me. Well, somehow I feel that if I never accepted myself is lacking in some ways and refuse to admit I was wrong...I will never get the chance to improve myself and just keep being a liar and pretender that I am perfect in every part of me..which actually I am NOT! 

If it happened bad things greeted me, instead of saying 'Why'...I just pray I can confront with the matter in nice way and put all my trust to God. cos whatever happens in life are already stated in our lifeline. After all, everything will has its own resolution, unless I don't have the initiative to work things out and put all my best to end things properly. 

But I cannot help my mouth from complaining either. cos somehow I feel I need to let out the uninvited pressure growing in me. Only when I talk about it, I sometimes realize the one who wrong was me. But sometimes it either around.

Wow, somehow I managed to update my entry after a long rest from blogging. Too busy with my trainee days which will come to end in few days anywhere. I'm glad I am here. cos I got many things absorbed in me and got new perspective of my life. :) 

All the happy moments, stressful days and not to forget with the OMG-what-a-weather (amazingly hot in here). 

p/s: My colleagues told me not to put our pic on my #fb, so I accomplished my word by putting the pics on my blog. *evil laugh* :D

Someone mad cos he was forced to lift his body when he actually trying to neat himself. poor my colleague. But thanks to him I always laugh when looking at this pic..and it remind me all the moments we had together :)

Missed Out Event

Today I missed out my aunt' engagement party. Reason?! Obviously I overslept ngeeeeeeeeee :P. Well, usually my mum will inform me, even last time when I actually studying for my last paper, she kept insisting me to go to one of my relative birthday party. But not this?! Of course it made me confused and actually got this thought that the event might cancel out or I got the wrong date. Oh about that, it happened actually. Last month, I went to got digital perm in thought that tomorrow gonna be my cousin's wedding..but it turn out it won't happen until the next month (apparently it was last week anywhere)..When I found out the truth of course I was like~ 

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WHATTTTTTTTTTTT??!! 

 and then went speechless. *shake head*

Luckily all my classes already ended that time, though I still got to attend our internship briefing, it was only for 1 hour though. After it ended, I just rushed out from the lecture hall as fast as I can hahaha. Reason?! Cos I thought it embarrassing since my lecturer somehow noticed bout it and said something that made me really embarrassed to the point I wish I have the ability to become invisible. I never went and have drastic change in short period, so I didn't really got used with my hair that time. I even texted my friends in advanced and asked her to not make it such a big deal for it. So they only made it look like nothing happened. But to think the person that I'd never expect to talk about it, in front of the class too~ it was totally UNEXPECTED!

But then, anyhow I still went to congrats my aunt for her engagement, and made my way to attend my-ownself-invitation-party. Itadakimasu~ LOL. Somehow I made myself stuffed with the foods! Well, they're family too, so what's to embarrass about right?! Cos it'll only make you seem distant to your own relative if you have that kind of thought. Honestly, that what I always think. Isn't it a common thing to do the sharing if you are families? You're related anywhere. Or, did my way of thinking wrong? Well as long I'm not committing a crime or sin, I shouldn't bother.

Oh I went to see Amor after that, only found out she sleeping. But of course while I was still at her house, somehow she awaken. Might cos I got my voice talking so loud, gome gome :P 

But wasn't it a good thing, cos somehow I managed to snap some pic (but I cannot  come and understand myself to brag about this haha) with her after that Lol. What am I exactly, camera freak?! APPARENTLY!!! *sigh* 

And today we went to the store. Since I am attacked by acnes right now (it almost a week but the numbers won't reduce so I got worry and actually in panic state already!), I decided to buy that Oxy10 cream. It seem ages already since I last use this cream. I guess this what happened when I had that wild idea to try putting my friend's make up on my face. After all, it just right after the stressful and damn busy weeks (well thanks to the killer papers and what's with the super last minutes study!!) . Not forgot to mention that freaking-exhausting-and-energy-sucker matter regarding our dissertation submission and some stuffs about internship and things-you-must-do-so-that-you-can-graduate-this-coming-Oct!!! Yappari, I guess my skin got so tense and shock cos of that *sigh*

So, somehow I got into this conversation with my sis bout the Japanese dramas she watching. So I asked if she got the drama where Kamenashi Kazuya starred as boxer and fall for the nun. To which she replied NO because the comments didn't look encouraging for her to watch and bother to get it *yeah yeah, so dissapointed actually since I thought she really had it :( * 

Sis: There..that Kame right, the one who starred.Me: Eh? How you know him?

I asked it suddenly out of curiosity since she only said Kame, while I stating his full name. Did you guys know what my sis answer was?!!!!

Sis: Ahhh..he's my schoolmate. (slumber tone, and continue eating)Me: *Speechless and continue eating*

I know well she was joking with me and that was an old way of teasing people back then. Somehow I felt a bit nostalgic for a moment Lol.

Until then....Goodnight :D

Babbling and so~

Fuhh..seem like I was gonna throw out my tantrum here, but guess things cool down faster than I thought. Or  perhaps I'm getting better in controlling my emotion? But who knows. Everyday won't be the same as for me. Since I'm just quite unpredictable. Even me myself has the moment where I simply cannot understand what I'm doing. However, I do realized that even my reckless actions sometimes what's make who I am today. Well though i know I'm not being someone worthy for anyone to look up for, still I'm living this life in my heart content?! Not completely, but I'm still satisfied :)

In time like this, which I guess I'm in the state where I can called it kinda in despair mode, but as many thoughts came, then slowly it got lightened a bit, the sorrowful feeling. Hurm, not a very suitable word to picture it actually. So I'm just pretty sad. Yes, SAD could be the best one. Since I write it this long, so just leave it like that. Cos even one letter actually did consumed some % of my energy. Haha what a weird way to explain things. But whatever.

OK, when I'm not in stable emotion, I used to think that there are actually other people who in the same time, but obviously not in the same place as mine, facing harder situations compared to mine. Thing I experienced right now, well might happen just because I let myself to fall in this kind of situation. I have the right to oppose it or to let it affecting me. Ha, I remember people telling me stuff like don't keep complaining if you having difficulty right now. But I think the opposite. Why can't I COMPLAINT?!! As for me, if I got myself into some problem, I will and always WILL complaining. It's not like complaining is a crime! I think, I should just let it out all the things that scramble in my mind so that I can put my mind back to its normal state and start thinking what to do next. Complaining doesn't mean that you incompetence in handling something. But it just, everyone had their own way in makes thing work. If everybody has the same exact way of thinking and opinion, then there will be no bad people, and there will be no need of law. What I mean is just each simply has their own opinion in things. People have their own life. After all, I only talk it out with my closer friends or mum or most of the time just talking with myself. Is that makes me a weirdo? Hurm I wonder. But even the thinking of me troubling people a lot with my own dilemma will be a bit annoying for myself. I wonder when did I become independent. Aside in refusing to use public transport and depend on my family member actually to come pick me up from my university, I usually handling other matters by myself. Well I just don't like public transport cos I doubt in the security provided. When I think about it, I really regretting for not taking Taekwando lesson during my high school. Why would I hate co-curriculum back then *sigh*

But somehow succumbed yourself too long on that sorrowful mode won't be such good idea anywhere. So whatever it takes to gain back your smile, just do it. Even you think it might won't work. Anywhere just don't do something way to absurd and illegal. 

Bla bla bla, I just writing randomly again. Guess people will having hard time to actually get what I mean. But it's not like I'm writing to entertain people but solely for crapping hahaha. Geez really, what did I do! Lol

Oh, cos leaving this post without any pic makes me think it's wayyyyyyyyyyyy too boring, so I went and searching out if there's a pic suitable enough. Though quiet embarrassing but I found one, me in cheerful mode, since I'm back to normal right now. guess spending time crapping here is not a waste effort after all huahuahua..I went and edited it first somehow Lol.

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Be happy! :D 

Now I wanna go and check if there is any update on 1 Piece manga. Cos last time I read Luffy actually in the middle of fight with that crazy scientist and I found Trefagar Law's hat quite cute! :)

The End of Final Semester~

Finally!! I submitted my final copies of dissertation!! Once I went out from the store which responsible for the hardcover binding thingy, I definitely went out with a BIG grin muahaha..At last!

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I was out of breath at some point since we running here and there, to catch time of course and thanks to a lot of stuffs to handle with aside from just submitting our dissertations! Oh, talk about our Head of Programme, we were so surprised when we found out he actually an ANIME LOVER!! Can't you believe that? He was watching Ninja something anime the time we showed up asking for his signature. Then, we talk about ONE PIECE. O well he told me this, "I really love it, but not Naruto.", and we were like, "Yeah, me too!" LOL.

He even asked if we already watched it from episode 1, which we answered, "Of course we did!". Haha what a coincidence. Oh, and yeah..I bet he's already 50++. But, anime know no age muahaha XP

We also took some time to take pics with our lab assistant. thank you for being so kind, eventhough sometimes it was so hard to find him. Still, he always helps and entertained us. Mr Jerry and us :)

All those hard works and stressful days~ it  now becomes a part of my memories as student for 3 years in chemistry field. Thank God for blessing me with such wonderful life, though it filled with bittersweet memories, that were the things that help me grow and going stronger! I do feel BLESSED!! ^^

Full House & Birthday Bash

This morning was my last exam paper which signified that it's the ending of my years studying here in this uni. I just don't know how am I gonna express this feeling in me. I'm so happy yet kinda sad too. Well, it's true that I ended up my years of studying, from the age 6 to now, I always facing up with books, apparently it was not manga or just magazine, but academics one. By saying goodbye to it, I felt nothing except HEAVEN haha. But, that's means that my years with my girls also come to an end too. I know it's not like we gonna end our friendship or thing like that. But it may not going be the same again since we not going to be stick like we used to be, went to classes or even skip it together LOL. Sigh, it's just sad. So we went hanging out after our last paper. It's Mira's birthday too, so we went to Full House to celebrate it! That place just so cute. I'm glad we ended up doing it there :D

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No matter how many times I see these two pics, it feel like I'm having my birthday celebrated with LOL. I went excited only for that Secret Recipe cake only hahaha

But as you can see from the name on top of the cake...

The main character here was this girl. Isn't she cute? :D

Isn't this place so cute!!!! Even the workers are friendly too. Guess who helping us out taking this pic? Oh yes, it's the manager! :D

Thanks girls!! You guys really made my day... :D

1 Piece

In the middle of studying, but suddenly i just feel like wanna crapping. But while I typing here, I found it's completely went diverging. So I deleted already haha. So for not making my effort to login here a waste, I just wanna said I'm becoming a FAN of 1 Piece already, it's almost hurmm like 1 month? Probably. I ended up watching it until 500 episodes and read up until the latest chapter (manga), and now I surpassing my friend who actually the one who introduced me to this anime Lol. She even got annoyed (not totally annoyed anywhere~ just not in a bad way hee) cos I know lots more bout what exactly happening to the Straw Hat pirate. It remind me how I spent the whole 2 days only to watch 100 episodes, starting for episode 1 of course. Luckily, that's the only episodes I got back then. So then I still had some times to work on my Viva slides, or else I might screw up my final year presentation.. Well, of course I went straight for 1Piece-episodes-hunting right after I went back from my Viva. Kinda crazy huh, hahaha.

What can I say about this anime? It's FREAKING awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It got all the elements needed to make the reader feel awed and amazed. Unexpected journey and well developed characters.

Full credit to this image.

Full credit to this image.
Byeeeeeeeeeee then :D

All the Good Days

At last I come here. Well since I got nothing to do anywhere ~pfft like I'm all free if I considere the upcoming paper this Monday~ But anywhere, like I said, I got nothing to do hahaha..Yeah yeah yeah later this Sunday will only I cry out for me being ignorant and not put all my effort studying instead of wasting time here. But still, isn't I'm the one who typing right now. Geez what the heck I talking about..

Hmm, I logged in to my Facebook but I found it boring, opened my Twitter and doing all the crapping there seem taking all of the effort since the tweet cannot be too long..But it's not like I have a thing to say. I do actually, but once I wanna jot it down, I lost interest to do so. Weird huh, but whatever.

Oh recently I took some pictures, but I dont wanna upload it into my FB..Since there's not many people know the presence of this blog of mine, so I guess it's the perfect place. Cos' it'll be a waste anywhere since why would I made all the effort to take a pics then let it unseen. But neither do I wanna show it to a great crowds. Hmm, now now what I'm crapping about...

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Hurm, it's only 10 days left before I leaving this hostel and my dorm. 3 years now seem like a 3 days. Times sure slip away in the blink of eyes. Only now I realized how this upcoming separation is real. I mean we might not have any chance to meet up again in the future u know. No matter how close we are, but distance, time and our surrounding somehow gonna influence all that. Like I used to think bout my friendship with my bestie from high school. I thought our friendship will stay strong but look like I was wrong. It's not like we got into argument or what, it just everything around us evolving and the fact that our friendship too affected really strike me at first. But then since I'm the type to stay on the corner and observing people, OK it's not like I'm staying in the corner for real, so slowly I got the picture how real life might be..Well, life it's not a fairytale anywhere.

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Me and the girls during our last field trip.
It's old pic anywhere :p

Ann, me and Teracy :)

with the other girls~ :)

Here another old pics ahaha. It was the time when we almost done with our respective projects. It took us almost 3 months actually to finish it off. Phew, all the trouble and stressful time, I'm really GLAD it was over now *sob sob sob*

Try harder to act like one~ a chemist lol

playing while Jerry was out haha

It's a great time with beautiful memories and sweet people. I'm glad that I meet and know them all :)