Project 1 and alphabet A

The result just came out this morning but since i was so freaked out, i only checked it like this evening..But Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..I got one A!!I mean seriously, it's an A!! Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

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But it's not like the overall result is that great, it's just that my project 1, the one and only one more precise, which i put all my effort with got AAAAAAAAAAA!!!and i'm so hepi! Lol. I just remembered how i cried and felt soooo doomed cos i late for the submission and then got some format problem too (only realized once i checked it back)..But still managed to get A! How cool is that?!!! I said, damn it's wayyyyyyyyy tooooooo GREAT!! Forget the others, cos what's do I expect to papers that i only spent a day or two to revise,

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Judging from this, dare not to expect more.

those subjects which took 3months for my lecturers to finish all of the syllabus?! I'm not being nasty, but that what exactly i did..And i perfectly know and admit that i deserved that scores. Though i think it got all twisted when the subject i guess i did pretty well during the exam got thumbs down, but the two which i answered so-so got unexpected results. Still, i'm so thankful cos it's not that suck anywhere. Thank you Lord :)

So rite now, i don't need to worry bout the threat that i need to face if i got poor for my project 1..Well the staff told me once, if the score is bad (which is not apparently *phew*), then i need to re-do the whole thesis back in Malay (!) I mean, re-doing a thing is one problem, but to translate everything where the Science terms are like 80% used in there, will certainly be a nightmare! I'm not overreacting, but that's the whole truth anywhere. 

So now i think i need to give more extra attention to my project 2. As long i do thing that i need to and focus on that, things will definitely work out right. Though i'm not that sure but all the best for me. God bless me. Amen.

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When the Red turn Green and Dark Cloud Attacked~

How one feel when s/he had already put all the effort to pull off the some-damn-it situation but still fail to achieve the goal? That's some annoying dissapointment was all i bore all day long a few days ago. But rite now, i think i'm fine. Back to the track girl. Quite happy once i changed my chemical since i managed to get the peak that i wanted *phew*

The one that i used rite now is called malachite green, one of textile dye which actually kinda widely used in many research since it's bear some negative impact to other's lives. At first i got so-dull-and-unattractive color from this one, unlike methyl red which was my main subject last time but well, due to the complicated situation that i need to deal if i'm stubborn enough to use that (and it's not even my wish to extend or stay there for another extra time..palis2).

The one that only left as history now :(

Methyl red standard solution that i'd prepared, which i already threw away
(not simply in the sink OK, but in waste botol)!

The standard solution in cuvette cell, before i run
the UV-Vis scanning.

What will happen to the methyl red at ph 5.8 to 6, once it added with HCl ?This was what happened...it changed color lorh

After addition of HCl..i borrowed Tresy app, that'll
 explain why her name is there lol

Since actually in order to proceed if i use this one, i need to fix the pH to 3..so imagine in 1 out of the 3 parameters that i need to do, the step actually needed me to prepare 20 flasks of different concentration of the dye..but since i need to do another 2 replicates, so it'll be 60 flasks that i gotta fix the pH..However since i need to modify my sample to acid and base treated, it's actually 180 flasks in total that i actually need to handle with!! So then i just give this one up and use the one that more easier..Anywhere i'm only undergrad student, not even postgrad..since the usage of methyl red is not really widely used in my experiment scope, plus with my sample which so hardly to find whether there's anyone who done the adsorption using it to remove the dye (since i only able to find out that people used my sample, water lettuce to adsorb heavy metal and no dye for this time being~according to me who's searching for the past months, maybe there's some1 but i can't find it *sigh*)..So i better avoid complex situation as fast as i can. I only wanna graduate this November!

So i started it all over again, but only for the dye preparation (it took me the whole day to finish it all up)..since the sample preparation done, but i think i gotta need more for my experiment..well, u cannot predict what's gonna happen tomorrow, so i better come prepared *determined*..

This is what malachite green look like (solution form).

The color of this one as the very beginning was so dull and i thought there was a possibility i was wrong there..but as the it left for a while, it changed to more concentrated look, like in the conical flask and in the left vol flask..

Diluting it before i went and run the uv-vis.

It didn't look green but rather turqoise..and i was so happy
cos i can play with the color lol

So, today i went and head back home..Since c Jerry (the lab's assistant) gonna close the organic lab for 2 days cos he wanna do some maintenance things there..well anywhere this next Monday will be the new semester already, so no surprise though..And i was kinda using all my energies for these 3 weeks so i should too go back and relaxing..andddddddddddddd recharge this drained-me! Lol

Oh today i went to eat at chinese restaurant..So what was the big deal?

Here's the big DEALLLLLLLLLLL....

I drink Carlsberg? SERIOUSSSSSSSSSLY? HAhahaha that lao pan really scared me cos i thought he misheard me..but it was actually exactly what i ordered, the CHINESE TEA! Lol

Anywhere, early this morning i was sooo furious with my dad..cos he made me walked here and there, but then i found him nowhere to be seen..With Celcom stupidly got some problem at that crucial time and i cannot make any call out also cannot even send any text (arhh what an annoying moment!!!!)..That's what wil happen when you assume you know everything too well without even listening to other party properly..Misinformation and misunderstanding might occur and it's happened cos people like being so ignorant or maybe thought themselves being so right for that moment..and i'm not refering to my matter all alone..but another situation..That's why people tend to fall into argument, because they won't LISTEN..Is that even hard only to spend a moment or two to listen? Will it turn your world upside down by doing that? It won't lah..Maybe you miss a thing or two, but it's not like the end of the world..Listening to others actually can bring a great help to the other party..especially if s/he the one who's being in the state of crisis, depression or whatever it is that affecting them emotionally..cos' once people talk out bout their proble, at least if you cannot give out them any advice, hug or pat them at the back, it will be already a great help..at least they feel appreciate, and it'll ease their troubled heart at ease, AT LEAST!

Back to my dad's matter,..So i went back and borrowed Nurul's phone..I even called the wrong person (since i'm not used to her phone) and yelled a little, made him in the state of confusion but since i was so mad and rushed so i just hang it up without any word of apologize (My bad, but i'm relly sorry T_T )..With all the luggage and bags, once my dad arrived (he actually already waiting me near the hostel but didn't informed me well since he hang up before, then he called me once after that and i didn't really know why but he actually went to wait me at the school after that, cos he acted Mr know it all once again!)..he mad me at first but then got quite when i talked it all out on how he didn't listen to me properly..Seriously, i really don't like when my dad quit the call when i even have thing to say but i still managed to find him by walking around here and there (tho i felt like a fool)..But once i cooled down, everything back to normal..And like usual, my dad kept saying he got magrain or what-so-ever and asked me to drive..I should just pretend to be still in mad mode and go to sleep that time *sigh*.

Date With Jay Chou?!

I had a date with JAY CHOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just couple hours ago, and it's not even a minute but for 2 HOURS?!!Seriously..hahahahaha..Well i guess it so :p

Yeah yeah yeah, call me a moron, i know it..With that stunning girl beside him right now, how could a country bumpkin like me even dare to say it a date..It's just a joke mah. All that date (which will be tooooooo great to be true!) was actually me and my girls (Terac and Nurul) went to say Jay Chou's latest movie! Well i know it's quite late a week from the premiere, but at least i went and saw him, my one and only Jay Chou!Woooooooooooo (cheering crazily like one of those die-hard-fan) Lol. After struggling doing our final year project for 3 weeks, taking some little time to relax and enjoying ourselves won't be a crime right..Oh I made some progress today, got tease by lab assistant (he imitated my high frequency voice which obviously embarrassing me) well, it's because i asked him a lot of stuffs for my project~well got to do so since he's so hardly to be found and i didn't stick doing my experiment only in one lab but keep moving around from analysis to organic then physical lab..sometimes i need to go to postgrad lab or natural product lab and even to environmental chemistry lab, which is actually located at another building!!..That's why I always felt sooooooooooo freaking exhausted once i got home (dorm actually haha). Arhhhhh enough of this!!!. Let's talk about the movie.

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Jay Chou's rumored girl, Hannah.Isn't she's hot!

Back to my point, OK, the movie. I cried a lot, I swear a lot and I scream a lot..All those thing done by me..and only by me. Others just quietly watching it, well some also giggling a lil bit..So no wonder lah the person behind me kept kicking my seat. Wanna ask me to shut my mouth? Seriously, i pay for the ticket and told you what, like i'll give a damn bout that attitude of yours! Just watch your manner, sit still and be a good girl..the sound effect is far more louder compared to my screaming and all..It's not even like I invaded into your own property and act like a mad.  Dude, it's a cinema..CINEMA ok!

I heard my friend said that there's a scene in Malaysia..But from what we saw just now, it's not a scene, but a lotsa scenes (!!) there in the peninsular.

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Well i really think it's worth to watch anywhere. It's not that great but it's not that way toooo boring either..But i really really really like it cos after all, I only wanna come and watch Jay Chou in there hahahaha..whateva lah.

Fuss in Lab Life

Just got home from lab couple minutes ago..my handphone ran out of battery so then i decided to quickly get it recharge..but then i just realize that i forgot to take the charger at home, plus my friend's charger also nowhere to be seen..why i'm actually bother by this?well supposedly, once i reach dorm, charge the batt and then of course, go and get some sleep..cos i'm way tooooooooooooooooooooo TIRED!

After been told to change the dye, which the one i used before this was methyl red, i decided to choose malachite green as my subject..which actually brought along some properties of it, the one who i couldn't foresee at the first look..it won't easily dissolve in water?SERIOUSLY!!!!!what the heck is that?!! I just stood there, speechless mode, for a while..then i just like, OMy God!what have i done? what i have done? WHAT MESS DID I THROW MYSELF IN?!!! 

So i went to try and sonicate it

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Nothing happen? God, i'm seriously death! *die die die*

Then I saw the master student and just called him to ask for help, so he asked me to try heat it up in the water bath..which I did, but the effect was just so damn long..only to see some slight changes. So i head back to the sanicator, then only after that everything seem back to the order..something i'm really really need and God know how I felt so thankful for that to happen and soooooooooo freaking relieved! Phew.

Well judging from what happen everyday in the lab, I didn't expect everything will run smoothly everytime I do whateva it takes..So I guess i should just come well-prepared so once i encounter with whateva it will be that gonna roll my eyes, at least i already bear in mind that my life is suck so just get it done in the way it supposed to be done..stop sighing, but banging the head on the wall is not forbidden either..cos i know it won't be that easy to get rid of that annoying foe of mine, STRESS!

Endurance to Ignorance

Geez..I don't know what's wrong but still in the end my supervisor advised me to change my chemical..Actually I even went to lab so that I can figure out why would the UV-Vis didn't gave out the reading as it supposed to..Well, since I already take it as my task to complete with so I wanna do it exactly how I did it from the very beginning..I find it kind of disturbing to change anything. Then I managed to find out the reason behind why the UV-Vis wasn't able to produce any satisfactory result (well it's the modified one, so that's why it a lil bit confusing)..But then, the reading were STILL wrong?!! OK, now I really give it up..

But unlike how I felt yesterday, right now I'm pretty relax and not surrounded all those ugly moment of stressful time..Well at least there's gotta be a reason behind all of these stressful moments and I really wanna say this: WHAT A VERY TROUBLESOME WEEK!

Recovered from the fever, but still the flu won't let go of me..Problem with project is also one thing..Then accidentally my hand hit the glass full of HOT tea and whalllllaaaaa...poor my leg T_T..And, I forgot  y password for our U's student portal!! Arhh, how come I even forgot that?!!! Then now how I gonna register my upcoming subject? Check out my result? Non-stop problems..Why wouldn't you left me alone huh?!!!

Place i go to cool down~i'm glad we got this spot near the lab.

Obstacles..Problems..Hardships..yeah yeah I know you all well enough. Just some bunch of thing which trying to MESS my life, SCREW my day and SHAKE my peaceful world! Nevamind, I still got this one super duper great of SUPPORT to fight with you all, which is GOD! Would you guys mess with the Master? Better not..So now, shuuuhh shuhhh away!!

Dear God, give me strength to face all these crazy things (yeah I know it's not that crazy but it's more tiring) and clear my mind so that I can see things in a positive way and can deal with it wisely. And, I'm really thankful for your guidance. cos' deep down I know that You made me in this and that certain situation for my own good. Jesus, my Savior, through You I pray. Amen.

Arrh, STRESS!

I hate it when I dunno what went wrong when d fact is, I already did everything I can to ensure it will turn at least good enough to make me feel at ease..but not giving me more STRESS!! Arg, everything I did seem like wrong, wrong, wrong and wrong again..Seriously, I really felt like wanna cry out but try harder just to endure it as much as I can..Well, it's not like everyday that passes makes me one day younger..rather than making me mature enough to do something I supposed to..not to do something bluntly on how I want to right..

I know today there were a lotsa sighing came out from my mouth..I felt like I'm dying inside cos' there are many other things to do, but still, I'm stuck at the very beginning..How can that be possible u say?Try to be in my shoe then! But deep down in my heart I know that this is the real deal anywhere..What final year project supposed to be..U don't expect everything gonna run smoothly as like it happen when u doin' your lab practical..There's gotta be some problem, there's gotta be some competition..Hardship that I need to endure in order to develop my skill, handling the stress, managing the instruments, asking for a direction and not simply acting like the expert..

But again, I still cannot denying the fact that I feel irritated! Sighing is the least thing I can do to minimizing all the stressful moment that piling up in my head.. shooting me from back and front, right and left..All those mixed feeling..Hurhhh, so damn TIRED!! Physically and mentally I honestly think I'm worn out T_T


But sometimes I wonder, did I overwork myself this time or this is how things actually supposed to run?..
Am I looking things as complicated when it actually not? Did it worth to spend hours only to read and understand the steps, but once it is done, everything fail? Should I just take this matter lightly? Cannot I just relaxed myself a little bit? Why would this looks so hard?

I wish tomorrow there's not gonna be any fail method and not gonna be a stressful day too. And we can finish all the most vital stuffs before our supervisor take his emergency leave (his's wife will give birth in anytime) haha..cos' it's gonna be pretty inconvenient if we stuck at certain level and cannot proceed it any further because we don't know exactly what's to do next..or things like that..Anyhow, some guidance is still what's we need in the middle of confusion right! So that's how it is. Well, I'm not that genius to work things out by myself.

My sample~that I  prepared during I caught cold . Felt like wanna passout here but
still managed to complete it well..pheww

Still, cannot use it for now since need to undergo drying process.

 

 God, bless my day for tomorrow and the day after so that I can make smooth progress in my project and be able to have more peaceful day of work. Amen.

Girls and Boy~

It's nothing special actually..Just wanna share some stories bout this one cute little girl with her trying hard to pose in front of camera with the V sign, competition to be in shoot, happy kids hahaha..Well I think it's funny so I just feel like..wanna post it here *wink*

1. Amor and her fully-focused-peace-sign

I heard light footsteps and then bupph..It's actually Amor came and asked to sit on my lap to join me watching RunningMan(?!) Naaa...it's actually she just wanna does some interrupting mission by randomly pressing like she herself was playing some intense notes with the piano *sigh*..So to distract her I said let's play with the cam, luckily she agree..Pheww. But it turn out that she was actually struggling to make her peace sign and didn't had the time to look directly to the phone..even in 1 pic!

At No.2, she actually said 'ntii!'..cos
she's not ready with d peace Lol

U see, all the pic actually were checked by her..seem she didn't really satisfied with the result..No.4 is the one where I said..'Sudah ka?' and cutely she replied 'mmh!' (which mean yes)..

2. Shaolin boy and the 3 Sisters

Kael stilllllllll doesn't has enough hair..since he remind me with this one shaolin kid who I love to watch when I was kid so I kept calling him that..Well actually I came out with so many nicknames for him..I just called him with whateva name pop out in my mind as soon as I see him..Oish, back to the point..I wanna talk about how competitive(?!) Kael can be when it came to taking pic..There's one time when he seem like annoyed and push aside Amor away..when suddenly her own sister pushed her away from the group pic, i can't help it but burst to laugh..Damn, how can it be? it's so freaking funny Lol..

Group's pic :)

Kael probably said "Don't steal my limelight" Lol

Poor Amor, but seem like she didn't wish to easily give up when suddenly she came and dushhh..

U-guys-don't-mess-with-me action hahaha

Kids nowadays hahaha..but honestly, they made my day :) 

Then I told them, it's gonna be the last shoot (cos i after that i went to slept hahaha)..So Lisa told them the last one let's tayang gigi..O well, macam lah the other 2 really get it kan haha. But I think the pic came out funny and cute too..Amor macam tersalah paham sudah by making that kind of O-pose haha..and seem like c Kael buat muka kunun-kunun cool (?) haha

1,2,3.....say E (?!)