Little Model ^^

Here's little fashionista we got in d family. I wonder who's traits she got but she already her own fashion sense. Even everyday she chooses her own outfit! What to wear n what's NOT!

On 1 sunny day she suddenly asked for her photo taken after saw my phone. Then she would rushed over and asked to see d result AND happily smiling looking at her photos. So CUTE!

Ta~dah!!

So lovely!!!

Ok, at least I made some posting here. Though nobody will actually reading it, it's for my own amusement to crapping in this page. What a freak Lol.

So welcome 2013! I wish it will be a year full of blesses, prosperity & fun. After all it's SNAKE year~!!

My zodiac year ^^

Starting d year with pure WHITE & make sure to end it with COLOURFUL and MESMERIZING colours. God bless (=

Short trip to Jakarta

So 1 week before my graduation day, me and my family went to Jakarta for a short vocation. I treated it as my gift for completing my study successfully. Well to think it back, I did had this plan to drop out and so whatever for a couple of times due to my frustration at d ugly situation I need to go through and all those emotional breakdown, which were really bad memory for me if you asked. But everything is left as the past now & though it made me cried and killing me inside, without those experiences I won't grow mature & appreciate my life I guess. Life is all about d learning process.

We were only stayed for 3 days at Jakarta. There are new things we learnt about Jakarta.

1) They called the mall as "Pasar", and high standard shopping complex like Pavillion is "mall".

The funny thing was, at first we thought our tourist guide really gonna bring us to some fish market so it made us wonder why would he bring us to there. Apparently "Pasar" is a place which selling cheaper stuffs and you can bargain with the seller. We went to Pasar Tanah Abang & Pasar Manga Dua.FYI,  Pasar Tanah Abang (8 stories) sells much cheaper stuffs compared to Manga Dua (10 stories). But both filled with people. It's too packed but well, u have lotsa option too.

2) Due to the massive number of people at d single city, there's a law where each vehicle should bring minimum 3 passengers inside or u'll get the "love letter" from d police officer. Imagine if Malaysia does the same thing?!

So we asked what if the car only has 1 or 2 passengers inside? Then he pointed at some people standing at the side of the road while raising their hand & showing sign of 1, some 2 using their fingers. He told us that people are "jockey", they played d role to fill the empty seat at the car. They were payed usually for Rp.10,000 to 20,000 (about RM 4.00 to 7.00).

3) The Monas tower bear a real gold! I did saw at History channel it just a rumor but even the native said so, it probably a fact then.

4) Cherry Belle or Bale? is the Girl Generation of Indonesia. They're so popular judging from the Entertainment programme I watched. There still got [V] channel, I envy them. Since here only left with MTV channel!


These are the only things I remember ahaha. Now pictures pictures!

.

.

.

Before departure...

.

.

Jakarta morning views from our hotel.

After long hours of shopping, went to lunch at the food court. 

On the way to Monas tower. 

Cos we arrived so late, the tower already closed! T.T

So we only managed to look it from the outside. My dream to touch the gold was totally crashed!

*sob sob*

During this shot, there was this one weird guy actually took a video of us. It was freaking embarrassing yet since I know we not gonna bump (like EVER!) with each other anymore, so I just ignore his presence.

.

.

.

In front of Plaza Indonesia. Not exactly at the front hee~

.

.

Night view. We were pretty exhausted this time. 

I only wish to hurry back at the hotel & sleep!

.

.

But we were brought to have our dinner first at Warung Tekko. According to our guide, this is pretty famous restaurant for its lamb ribs. The price is affordable too, not that expensive.

See...I even noticed the celebrities who went there.

 But I forgot who since I dont know who they are exactly.

.

.

.

Tadaa!! Since it look pretty yummy I did ate it. My very first time trying to eat a rib! from a lamb too!!

.

.

Pasar manga Dua!

.

.

.

Jakarta night view from our hotel.

~The End~

Babysitting Day

Finally I completed my task, babysitting Mr Kel. Phew~

I woke exactly at 7 in the morning cos my brother called me out actually (or who knows what gonna time I'll wake if not for his waking me up). Soon as I went to the living room I already heard Mr Kel was crying like crazy. So I assume cos he saw his father going to work so I let him out from his crib. Moreover I was still in the state of mid awake.  So after my bro left I asked him to sit down and watched the TV together (it's MTV channel for me!) but he keep standing even if I made him, he suddenly got up back and start crying. It made me all confused at first and then..................WHAT SMELL IS THAT?!!! It happened he actually pooed on his pampers. *sigh* Of all things, so early in the morning too (according to my hour definition)..why must this?! I'm not used to it since I really cannot stand the smell, not because it's look disgusting. But I just so weak to withstand the smell. I tell you, that 'thing' sure FREAKING smelly!!! I almost puke, I mean really really REALLY almost throwing out and I'm not exaggerating during do the cleaning for my nephew. That was why he cried like being torture. ~.~

After took a bath,

.

.

.

 now he all cleansed and happy. 

But only for him since I only managed to brush my teeth or else he gonna faint from excessive crying for being alone, even ended up bore the fresh face from bed. Well no kid like to be leave all alone by themselves I supposed. So I ended up went to bath only until 10 AM. That thanks to him being sleepy and so I quickly put him inside the crib. Lol. 

not even got the chance to wash my face *sigh*

Clearly a still-not-take-a-bath face! Lol

Meanwhile here the one who happily playing and got no world to care for,

.

.

But his smile sure relaxing. (:

So my mummy got back at afternoon so she took it over. And today I also received my delivery. Yaeh! I'm so happy. It the milky rice soap. Apparently I already used it about 2 months and god-knows-who someone throwing the little piece left so I gotta order it much earlier. The thing was, I forgot (more clearly I actually pretty CLUELESS) that last Friday was actually a public holiday!! SO in the end I only managed to get it today. For 1 week I need to use the previous cream cleanser I used (it's Olay). I realized my face was always oily (the fact that it a cream cleanser might 1 of the reason since my skin is actually an oily type) and soooooooooo uncomfortable. From 3 times a day, I seem like washed my face too often than usual. But worry NO MORE, since I already get it. Muahahaha. Plus I REALLY REALLY love this soap scent, a combination of milk and rice. So refreshing! Since it's so hard to find at closer store, I bought it a dozen in quantity. So from my calculation it can hold for 2 or 3 years HAHAHA. We should look further ahead y'know, then it'll gonna make my life much easier from now on without worrying bout my face cleanser for about, 3 YEARS!! LOL

See...it 12 packs! (:

Also, I got 2 letters that sure surprising me. Especially this one,

 

Remember I told at my previous entry (pfft like there's anybody even bother bout that!) that I din't get any allowance from the company I underwent my internship programme?! Fortunately since I was a scholarship student under the state government, there was this thing called "scholarship extension" where we student can claim an allowance for our internship purpose. Well since everything not come free so of course we need the allowance so badly. There is nothing FREE in this world y'know. Thanks BKNS!! ^^

The other letter is the billing letter from Maxis. I did used Maxis broadband not too long ago but terminated my subscription since it seem like my hometown doesn't really favor this line. They even persuade me to continue it with giving out 20% cut but I just MUST said no cos what's the point pay lesser still the connection is only GPRS? So RUGI lorh!! It been 3 months since I terminated it so it obviously freaked me out to receive another billing letter. I mean I already paid it and in the right state of mind, CLEARLY I paid it. Even got the record at my bank account, so WHAT IS WRONG with Maxis?!!!!!! But that were the thinking I gt before I opened the envelope though HAHA. It happened Maxis is not that stingy to waste their ink printer and paper for me. The billing clearly showed that there is no longer unsettled bill. ^^ Well of course, I'm not the one who like the term "DEBT" not even like to feel I owe someone or even throw myself into debt. It just so NOT me. Cos that kind of feeling is truly killing me and burdening. So in any case even it means I need to work myself out, I really will free myself from DEBT!! You see, I think God really care for me since I no need to bear the thought that I have a loan to pay, so God has blessed me with scholarship!! ^^

TADAA!

It's stated RM 0.00!! (:

~The End~

Stage Photo (Another graduation-based post)

As I checked my email this afternoon I realized there were some junk mails. But once I opened the folder, it actually got a mail from the official photography store responsible for our stage photo during our graduation day last week. Gosh, luckily I didn't simply clicking the delete button like I usually did ^,^.

They showed me a preview of what the pics gonna look like since I took their other service to put the university logo and some words on them, the pics bdw. So just now while checking my email again, well since I'm jobless and got nothing to do (no assignment or what tutorials?!) I found myself constantly log in and logging out from it ahahaha. Loser? Eh?!! Not even make sense. See, I think I'm kinda losing myself and found myself a bit off sometimes LOL.

Here the picture!

.

.

.

Took it with big smile (:

I even got the "with Honours" cut at first. Luckily the guy is soooooooooooo kind to do the extra work by adding it again (in the preview it lack those 2 words but it already been settled anyway), so I'm a bit happy. They didn't charge me either, so I'm freaking love them right now AHAHAHA.

Well, actually I didn't plan to even bother took these pics from the store and almost leave the reference paper at my seat ( THANKFULLY I was not that crazy enough that time) but then my mami told me,

What's the point receiving the scroll at the stage in the first place if you don't even planning to take the pic! It's a memoirs and bla bla bla~

Yea yea, I ended up got a free lecture. I complaint how expensive it were so that was the reason I refused at  the beginning. Somehow, since I have tasted how difficult it is to earn money by myself (experienced it from my internship...though I didn't even got any allowance from that company) ...anyhow money just doesn't come falling from the sky but gotta work for it, so I kinda REALLY REALLY value the thin paper called MONEY! Though all the cost during my graduation came from my sisters (thanks for the flowers and graduated bear), dadi (he paid for my graduation fee~ but I heard my university gonna pay it back?!) and mami (these photos~the other 2 are not upload here since I said so XP )...but I still feel the pressure letting the money slip away from my very own hand. Should I feel depressed anyway? Weird girl! It's not even your money. Boo.

Oh here the pics of the graduated bear I adopted during my graduation. Lol.

Awh, I forgot I even adopted a green frog too. Haha.

OK, I should go to bed sooner since I'm in charge of babysitting c golombon tomorrow since my mami going to get her health check up. Usually I only taking care of him past my usual sleeping hour but seem like I need to get up earlier since he got his waking hour messed up so at 6 AM (?!!) he usually already singing inside his crib. O_O

I wish I can get my hands and self on a real workplace soon!!! Anyone please hire this amateur chemist! >.<

God bless! ^^

Graduation Day

Ok last Saturday we actually having our convocation. Well I mean for me and my coursemates and to those who graduating as well. The BIG day was exactly a month before my birthday. But it not makes any different or special though, somehow I just wanna mention it that way HAHAHA.

Can't believe I finally officially...GRADUATED!! After 18 years of studying (the kindergarten count too!) it now come to an end. Since I do not have the intention to pursue my study at higher level for NOW, so it is right to say so. I'm reaching my limit...my brain may still make it but my body is totally against it. Truthfully, I'm just TOO LAZY hahaha.

Well if I look back to those moments that undeniably manage to bring me down, I told you seriously I were once had emotional breakdown. Especially when I experienced the bullying myself and almost quit matriculation college. But I'm just so thankful to my friends and family cos without them I honestly believe I won't talking about graduation right now. I'm just feel so grateful deep down in my heart, not forgetting GOD too! Cos I remember constantly praying for some miracle to happen and I will be able to get over it. Which it happened. That's why I'm here wanna boasting a lil bit bout my convo day. ^.~

Time sure flies so fast and without we realized. Since we are always too worried bout what tomorrow look like until we always forgetting and valuing every lil thing that happen around us. Hurm, is what I saying makes sense? Well whatever lah. Lol

Me~ as where the arrow point.

It felt just like yesterday I was in my kindergarten playing around with the other kids and my cousin. I don't know why the heck I did the sulking face for though I try so hard to recall it. But the possibility it was because of food might higher since I extremely a food lover as a child. Or I was lost while playing LOL.

Can u guess which 1 is the little me? :P

This is the pic while we were waiting for our name to be called to receive the certificate. A graduation day from kindergarten. All were still having those innocent looks, now everyone already a grown up, some already married. The first person in line is my cousin, guess what, he will having his wedding ceremony this coming December. Before his engagement I always thought and see him as that same kid in this pic..bout yeah yeah times flies right. Even he became taller than me, but adopting more FAT than me.^^

Finally ceremony was ended.

 It clearly told you it was a picture taken almost 20 years ago by only looking on that hairstyles hehehe. Opps my aunt was there too apparently, sorry aunt. :P

That how my first graduation look like. Here our class picture when we were still a freshmen.
Industrial Chemistry batch 09/12.

And few days ago, during the BIG day, everything was in hiatus at the beginning. All because the photoshoot which I already booked at 11 AM, but due to some reason it was delayed since there was another family doing the photoshoot at the-supposedly-it-my-turn time. So all the matter bout the grad pics only finish at 12 something in the afternoon. Then my family were so hungry (and so was I) that we decided to go for lunch since my session was at 2 PM in the evening. Then I got text from my friend telling me we were supposed to gather and soon will enter the hall, and I was so WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?!!!!

Then everything turn to chaos. I was start panicking until I incidentally spilled the chicken soup on my dress!! Luckily I put my bag on my lap, so...but I still had the soup smell T.T
After that we were rushing to go the university but was delayed once again since we didn't find the person in charge for the parking fee. My tears almost pouring out that time. After that I got another text from my friend informing me that they already been asked to enter the hall!! And yeah the traffic almost cost me an heart attack. Soon I reached at my uni, I was running like crazy and almost lost my breath. Luckily there were still some students also late. And one of the committe in charge helping me out with my hood, apparently it was a total DISASTER that time! While trying to keep my breath back on track, I caught some familiar voice and it turn out my coursemate. O I felt so hallelujah that time. So I got myself to calm down and everything went smoothly during the whole event. No tripping, no humiliating thing happen.

After the event, though, I STILL got separated from my friends since our line was instructed to get out using the other door. Did I mention the hall is damn big?! Plus I was separated from my family too. It took me a while to find them..but anyway I found them and then we started taking lots of pics like there is no tomorrow.

Proud parents!!!

Definitely exhausted.

I'm officially free. That what this pic supposed to mean :)

I was trying to get the pic of my hat on the air. But..

~The End~

The Land of Mankind

Warning: No images but only filled with words and nothing but words.

Today afternoon, I actually got a chance to watch the television to my heart content. It was all thanks to my mum went to hang out at my cousin's house..well, I was left with my nephew though. But luckily he was in deep sleep, cannot argue to that since the weather seem quite unstable these days. Everynight we are accompanied with the sounds of frogs..and then several minutes later we heard ba-bump!! and yeah, so it is raining coming visit.

Back to the reason I stop by here and start clicking this tab to tell what exactly in my mind, THIS afternoon. No, it's not about right now. OK, there are FREE chanels by the way. You don't know how happy am I the moment I clicked OK for the HBO chanel, CI chanel and hey, the Cartoon Network too!! I was happily smilling while watching Oggy & Coackroaches. Nothing differ, just the poor Oggy got constantly bullied by those 3 evil coackroaches. I wonder why Oggy always lose when it involving a battle between him and those pests. Sometimes I was the one who got undeniably piss off since they always win over poor Oggy. Sigh. The director should give Oggy much some sort of power or control since the place is actually Oggy's house!!

Ooo..it too far from the original plan already haha.

So, after the cartoon was end, I went searching for another interesting proggrame where I saw the title said 'The Land of Mankind'. Apparently, though the title not the one you can called some eye-cathcher, still I went for it. It was a documentary about the live of people in Afghanistan from (the moment I watched it) 2006 until 2007. Since it is broadcasted at KBS chanel, so the documentary was held by the Koreans. There is short clip where I saw a Korean woman, I guess that's the reporter. The moment I turned into that chanel, the first thing I saw was there some guys were rushing outside and heard bombing. Next, I saw there was a guy being beaten by several men. At the moment I was so confused yet continue watching it. Some question popped out in my head. I was wondering where is this actually happen? Since all we know Syria is the most war-affected country right now, and hopefully by Angelina Jolie went to Syria will lesser the complication that place having right now. Amen.

Then later I learnt it was the conflict and real situation recorded through these Korean lens, not picturing or indicating simply the ground, the houses or the faces..but the real TRUTHS of those people. People who lives had been infaltred abruptly. People who right had been deny. People who struggling to make living, but died in vain. People who keep alive by from day to day are losing their hopes. People who not asking for more except food but to feed on their little children but cannot due to ridiculously expensive flour price which is $80. People who willing to die to protect their lands. People who want to help so badly but cannot do anything since they also powerless. A battle which keep goes on and sacrificing none other but the INNOCENCE!! That what the documentary can showed you, from my perspective.

There were several stories that really pin me in the heart and seriously I cannot stop my tears from falling. Well, it's all because I am still a human. Not only human by appearance like some people, which I assume they have made a heart transaction with the evil for the temporary 'BLESSINGS' and earthly indulgence.

#1: There was a guy named Asad, aged 18 years old. He have 2 kids, the youngest is 6 months. Still got both of his parents. Apparently, he is the family head instead of his aging father. He was one of the employee at the iron factory, and thanks for that he was able to feed his entire family and not letting them suffer from starvation. But not until that one particular broad-light day when everything went wrong. There was an aircraft carrying bombs had launched an attack at their village, and what turn me speechless was the attack was done INCIDENTALLY?!!!! The other side thought the enemy is there. But NO!! Everyone there are only the typical citizen, and from the bombing there were lots of lives taken, including the poor young farther of 2, Asad. People managed to sent him to the hospital, but he was badly injured. I can saw back then how he trying to keep his breath and fighting for his life. A small hospital built at war active area, what can people expect more from this kind of place. There are too many lacking in many areas especially the equipments. Realizing he was the family head, and still having a baby in his house and other family members to look after, I bet there were many things stacked in his head. But no matter how hard he tried, he still lose in the fight..A fighting of life.
Not end at there, the crews went to visit his house after that only to find more sad and devastating-to-see parts. His wife can only crying. His mother showed her regreation and why must it happen to his son, what future hold for them. The man tears of the farther slowly fall down through his cheeks, and remain silent yet his sorrow eyes already can tell everything.

#2: In the police station, there was 1 young guy aged 14. I thought he was the kitchen helper or errand boy. But never thought he was one of the police officer. I forgot his name, but he has 8 family members that depend on him. Still with only $70 as his wages, his grandfarther  told to the crews the money itself won't be enough but somehow they will try to manage it wisely. It turn up the farther is really sick, and then they mention about wedding preparation. Since I had read about some women at certains countries, normally Middle East areas who usually having their wedding as early 8 years old, the one I read on Readers Digest, so I can conclude that particular thing is gonna happen to one of the daughter in the family. Well my guess was true after all when there was one family who know about the daughter, so they asking for the girl's hand. Desperate for medicine supply and foods, the mother agreed and accepted the dowry,which was $2,000. But she told all the money was already gone after bought the farther's health needs and bought daily essentials. What attracts me was the story teller words when he said,

"a marriage that bring pain rather than happiness"

The daughter is still so young, 16 years old. Though  it is actually legal to marry a girl when they reach 16, with the parents' approval, but...you can search for cases similar to this, there are lots of sources you can get only by googling it.

This young guy also found sacrificed during a battle between the police and the enemy. The crew found bout it after 1 year made a journey to other places and went back to this area. The koreans crews, as what they told, only found unfamiliar faces. Those people who once having conversation with them, taking pictures with big smile on their faces are now gone. The only one they recognized is one old man who was the one told them about those faces the crews once shared some happy and heart wrenching moments.

There, I actually typing an essay. OK, there actually other stories bout the first guy the crews met was actually a policeman, but left his position and became the opposite supporter. Amazingly, he said his life far more better.
Then there was a beautiful view of green and healty grasses between the barren land, turn out to be poppi plants. I, at first too didn't know what exactly is that, but its sap is actually DRUG!! But the farmers said that is the only source of their income when the plants were taking down by smashing it with gardening tools by the police officers. It illegal, yet it so devastating to see their tears. Somehow I cannot bring myself to hate neither do I can blame  the farmers, cos they are the ones who feel the pain, bear the suffering, and  live at that conflict areas. They are the people who facing the real truths about what their land state really is.

It easy to say a word, or even voice out your opinion on how people should handling the matter and found another way of solution. But have you ever consider that those people might have trying all the possible way yet situation always betray them that finally no matter how much their decline and resist that particular, a final solution they can think of ? I tell you what, it easy to think and make evaluation, but to really live the life...even to leave you for an hour at their shoes, you will wish it all just a nightmare. Imagine the one who actually living at the nightmare.

I pray for the innocence souls to be rest in peace. Ease the pain of those who might suffering in those war active places. Give comfort especially to the  ears  of the children. Touch the men    hearts, so they will be softened and putting an end to this drastic way to win, but let them using much wiser as their heads to get an agreement, without putting innocnece lives in danger. Amen.

Life Changing Experience

As I walking in this path of life and experiencing the unpredictable and awesomeness yet hurtful in some ways but life changing journey, I did learn lots of things. Sometimes I stopped myself for a while and try to evaluate properly what exactly happening in my life. The bad..and the good things too. I realize I never happen to try understand people properly yet I just directly saying bad things bout him at first. As time goes by, and through the days I spent with people around me, I start learning and can keep up with their personalities. I start to tell myself, that everyone has their own character..and they just being themselves. Same goes for me..I always wanna people to accept me as the way I am, never ever questioning how I behave. Well, I now the LIMITATIONS o.k!!

Another stuff I did which I regarded quiet wrong is AVOIDING responsibility. What I mean here is when something happen, I try to put the blame on others!! Well, of course I'm not being active-member for this anymore. I just felt a sense of guilty for what I did in the past, so just wanna sort it out here Lol. 

If I happen to cause a chaos, I just apologize. Not pushing the blame to anyone. But only for thing which I did cos somehow I won't feel anything but uneasiness attacking me. Well, somehow I feel that if I never accepted myself is lacking in some ways and refuse to admit I was wrong...I will never get the chance to improve myself and just keep being a liar and pretender that I am perfect in every part of me..which actually I am NOT! 

If it happened bad things greeted me, instead of saying 'Why'...I just pray I can confront with the matter in nice way and put all my trust to God. cos whatever happens in life are already stated in our lifeline. After all, everything will has its own resolution, unless I don't have the initiative to work things out and put all my best to end things properly. 

But I cannot help my mouth from complaining either. cos somehow I feel I need to let out the uninvited pressure growing in me. Only when I talk about it, I sometimes realize the one who wrong was me. But sometimes it either around.

Wow, somehow I managed to update my entry after a long rest from blogging. Too busy with my trainee days which will come to end in few days anywhere. I'm glad I am here. cos I got many things absorbed in me and got new perspective of my life. :) 

All the happy moments, stressful days and not to forget with the OMG-what-a-weather (amazingly hot in here). 

p/s: My colleagues told me not to put our pic on my #fb, so I accomplished my word by putting the pics on my blog. *evil laugh* :D

Someone mad cos he was forced to lift his body when he actually trying to neat himself. poor my colleague. But thanks to him I always laugh when looking at this pic..and it remind me all the moments we had together :)